mh(-)
Had a wonderful night
But had a series of nightmares that drained and shook me. Harassment and yelling and death threats being chided that the reason i swing back into “boy mode” is because the stress of being a visibly trans woman is too much for me to handle
And i’m not even sure that dream was wrong. I MISSED that comfort and i feel guilty for sinking back into that privilege but sometimes it’s just too much.
Anyway heres to what is likely to be another spoonless day letting down folks that want to see me because I can’t handle seeing folks right now
Yaaay.
@Oneironott *hughugs*
I'll be here if you need me, love, or let you recharge on your own, in the meantime.
For what it's worth, I've been basically in 'boy mode' presentation since /starting/ transition and I still feel the same way, like it's cheating and leaning on my privilege too much. *squeeze*
I don't have good answers for you, right now. I love you however you look, and I see your beautiful true self, too. :-}
