green except too damn hot @green@awoo.space

thinking a lot lately about how my mom told me "you'll get more conservative as you get older"

and how I want to tell my 20-something semi-relative "you'll get more liberal as you get older"

heh

uuuggggghhhh it's hot already and it's only 9. *wilts*

I lost my first match fairly, I don't mind. XD

oooh, somebody misunderstood the /roll system in an RP sparring match, and things are getting snippy.

saw a couple of starlings going after the suet just now. not unusual to see starlings, but I've never seen them at the suet feeder before. might just be because I was up earlier than usual, and they only hit in the mornings?

now attempting coffee. this is probably a bad idea.

ugh... given how bad my allergies are already, I think my caffeineation is going to start in the form of a DayQuil. >___< also I am having to teach my browser's spellcheck several verb forms of "caffeine" this morning. :P

on the upside, at a big RP event last night I found a guild for at least one of my alts on WRA, and probably another as well. and I found another guild that seems like a good fit for two, maybe three others. I want to at least get all my various alts into non-terrible guilds, and having a large RP community to interact with is giving me the happyfuzzies. :D

so I have to decide: decide "fuck it, I'm awake now," and caffeinate myself? or take a shot of NyQuil and try to go back to sleep? I know which one I'd rather go with, but I think I need to choose the awake option instead. :P and then fend off the HUNGRY HUNGRY CATS for another couple of hours, because I am not going to bend their feeding schedule by two hours, dammit. they're bad enough already. >____<

unfortunately, that puts me even more awake several hours early, and Nar "knows" that me awake = Nar gets food, so he's being *really* obnoxious. I feel very sleepy, but not sleepy enough to go back to sleep. there's stuff I want to do today, so I don't know if I'll be able to nap, and it's going to be miserably warm...

ugh. I shouldn't be awake for a couple more hours, but I woke up from a story-dream that I had to write down before it evaporated. it's not a very coherent or complete story, so I won't tell it here, but I saved it to my dreamseed folder--it might be useful later.

yay, got my first spam-follow here... :P

I did not go to Pride! but I accomplished everything-1 that I set out to do today, +1 bonus thing that I hadn't planned on doing (because I took the wrong bus and figured why not), and I now have craft stuff to make a nifty thing with, if I ever get around to actually making it, as is usual. right now, though, it's WoW time. /dives

not going to trans pride today. as soon as I decided that my anxiety evaporated, which tells me it's the right choice for me. :] I need either more time to prepare myself, or a buddy to go/meet up with there, and I don't have either this year. next year, I'll definitely have at least one of those two, maybe both?

on the other claw, I do need to go do errands today. fortunately they're light ones. so I'm off for now, seeya later!

the anxiety is about--sun/heat, logistics of travel to a strange place at an unusual time, feeding myself, finances, will I know/be able to find anybody I know there--the usual stuff that keeps me from doing a lot of events, especially in summer. :P

if the metric is "do you want to do this because it sounds like fun" vs. "does the thought of doing this fill you with anxiety" then nope. :|