ruth 🙀 @hailoe@awoo.space

i'm very sleepy

i want everything i’ve asked for
into my cerebral understanding
stop when i’m demanding

pour yourself into the glass jar
let the world you’ve sought find you believing
set the fire freeing

i've actually been writing the past couple nights. makes me feel like i'm finally doing something!! hope i can keep it up.

*opens up backpack*

*puts another smaller backpack with all my sex stuff in it inside*

i have to leave my partner's house now :(

this means i have to stop cuddling them :(

sighhhhh

cuddles are really good and i love them

@ThatDamnCat i honestly wish i had the chutzpah to say "let's do it" but i like pockets too much!! all i ever carry is phone/wallet/keys anyway. just two front pockets is all i need. (or i need to come across a purse somehow) literally about to use an entire backpack just to bring a couple things over to my partner's place

i really, really need a purse. or even just a tiny lil bag.

skirt. pro: dead cute. easy for my partner to take off of me. con: WHERE MY POCKETS GO

if you can avoid it, don't go to bed at noon, like i'm about to do. 😴

i am literally so incensed that someone has not yet created a good macos mastodon client that i am really tempted to use this as my excuse to finally learn swift and cocoa and all that.

still learning the mastodon UI. finally figured out I could re-order the panes; but the one that things i click on show up in can't be moved from the farthest right spot afaict. this is troubling cause as i have things set up it's always off my screen, and i keep clicking on things and thinking "why is nothing happening when i do this???"

i was beginning to think that there was no good music coming out, and then a whole bunch of good music starts coming out. new kai whiston, new(ish) floating points, new jefre cantu-ledesma... i'm gonna be happy for a while

whiston is killing it like always. if you want to feel like you're drowning in raw internet, listen to kai whiston's new mixtape "MUKBANG" for thump https://thump.vice.com/en_us/article/pay7y7/kai-whiston-mukbang-mixtape-listen

also i desperately need a better profile picture but i'll just... have to start with this one for now i suppose. (someone draw my fursona)

okay, time to get the boring very first post out of the way so i can talk about more interesting things, like depression, and the possibility that i might get to get my face squished between my partner's legs today