3) I learned a lot; namely that the more you get into something, the more you see in it. I learned a lot of things about how I see myself and what my needs are through the fandom and exploring this side of myself. I also learned that our fantasies =/= our morality, necessarily.

4) For me, the best sensation is that moment when some huge, powerful, dangerous beast notices YOU out of all the other chaos or hard-to-see tiny stuff around. There's an electric feeling for me, being the object of a giant's attention.

5) The fantasy...probably takes a bit more of my life than it should? I've built my writing around it for a few years now, and it tends to creep into other aspects of my life (like tabletop RPGs). Not entirely proud of that, but it is definitely a *thing* with me. :)

6) My greatest frustration with this fantasy is that I seem to be incompatible with so many of my friends and I've developed a reluctance to engage with most of them about it because of that. I never want to scare someone off the kink, or sacrifice a relationship to it.

7) One time, a friend had programmed his FurryMUCK description to run the full gamut of sizes, and when he went to his largest to show off I think he *might* have brought down the MUCK. Or it might have been coincidence. :)

8) The first time I got to play with someone who went up to mega-macro sizes, it was...pretty mind-blowing to say the least.

That mega-macro is now my husband. <3

9) I never thought I'd actually be into the destructive side of macro, and I'm still not that hot on sadistic/crunch/vore stuff. But man, being too big for an environment so that you can't help but break stuff? I never thought I'd be as into it as I am. :)

10) I think the greatest revelation I've had with various fantasies is...the fact that my "idealized" self is a lot different from what I had initially imagined and that I can be pretty selfish in weird ways. It's a good opportunity to work on that.

11) My partners are cool with (or excited by!) growth and really like to throw their weight around. At the same time, they know how to relate to people who are smaller and weaker than they are without being complete assholes about it

12) My partner is the love of my life, and one of the best people I've ever had the pleasure of knowing. <3

13) Of *course* I care about my partners an awful lot. The idea that I am not easy to deal with (*especially* about this stuff) is baked into my self-image, so anyone who puts up with my neuroses and weirdness is really important to me. I cherish those folks. <3

14) I'd love a scenario where folks grow larger as they develop their sense of morality/spirituality; so a monastery would be filled with beings of different sizes, all working harmoniously towards the same goal, and enjoying each other's company. <3

15) Honestly, I sincerely wish I could be more confident and less afraid/anxious about everything. Spending all this mental energy being afraid about stuff when it could be going to better things bums me out when I think about it.

16) My one wish for humanity as a whole is to respond with compassion, curiosity, and acceptance to one another. So much in the world could be resolved if we were gentler with each other. Accepting people just as they are is very hard, but so worth it.

17) My line: Be careful with that potion. I'm proud of it, but I don't think I've got the concentration right...

18) Your line: How long until I stop having these growth spurts? (Never)

@jakebe Hey, loving your responses to this meme. :>

@jakebe For what it's worth I've always found you a very easy person to interact with, but I grant we have a relationship where there's not much need for us to interact except when we're both in decent spirits.

@jakebe Oh, that's so much fun.

There's this Chinese dragon occasionally visiting the Giants Club whom I've got this fun dynamic with. She's intrigued by Austin and his apparent indifference to her majesty, especially given how he seems to just be an ordinary if large red-panda/tanuki hybrid thing, and would stomp me if I let on that I know it.