GASP, I've been tagged!!

1) My size has shifted quite a bit over the years, but currently I like to rock it at the "pretend dom/secret sub" size of eight feet tall. :)

I have another character, @Roovumbidgee@twitter.com, who is naturally 20 miles tall but tends towards 200 feet as a "social" size.

2) Because why *wouldn't* you? :D I discovered the furry community and macrophilia at pretty much the same time, so they're intimately linked for me. Being able to imagine these things with a world of wonderful and creative people out there is just one of the best things ever.

3) I learned a lot; namely that the more you get into something, the more you see in it. I learned a lot of things about how I see myself and what my needs are through the fandom and exploring this side of myself. I also learned that our fantasies =/= our morality, necessarily.

4) For me, the best sensation is that moment when some huge, powerful, dangerous beast notices YOU out of all the other chaos or hard-to-see tiny stuff around. There's an electric feeling for me, being the object of a giant's attention.

5) The fantasy...probably takes a bit more of my life than it should? I've built my writing around it for a few years now, and it tends to creep into other aspects of my life (like tabletop RPGs). Not entirely proud of that, but it is definitely a *thing* with me. :)

6) My greatest frustration with this fantasy is that I seem to be incompatible with so many of my friends and I've developed a reluctance to engage with most of them about it because of that. I never want to scare someone off the kink, or sacrifice a relationship to it.

7) One time, a friend had programmed his FurryMUCK description to run the full gamut of sizes, and when he went to his largest to show off I think he *might* have brought down the MUCK. Or it might have been coincidence. :)

8) The first time I got to play with someone who went up to mega-macro sizes, it was...pretty mind-blowing to say the least.

That mega-macro is now my husband. <3

9) I never thought I'd actually be into the destructive side of macro, and I'm still not that hot on sadistic/crunch/vore stuff. But man, being too big for an environment so that you can't help but break stuff? I never thought I'd be as into it as I am. :)

10) I think the greatest revelation I've had with various fantasies is...the fact that my "idealized" self is a lot different from what I had initially imagined and that I can be pretty selfish in weird ways. It's a good opportunity to work on that.

11) My partners are cool with (or excited by!) growth and really like to throw their weight around. At the same time, they know how to relate to people who are smaller and weaker than they are without being complete assholes about it

12) My partner is the love of my life, and one of the best people I've ever had the pleasure of knowing. <3

13) Of *course* I care about my partners an awful lot. The idea that I am not easy to deal with (*especially* about this stuff) is baked into my self-image, so anyone who puts up with my neuroses and weirdness is really important to me. I cherish those folks. <3

14) I'd love a scenario where folks grow larger as they develop their sense of morality/spirituality; so a monastery would be filled with beings of different sizes, all working harmoniously towards the same goal, and enjoying each other's company. <3

15) Honestly, I sincerely wish I could be more confident and less afraid/anxious about everything. Spending all this mental energy being afraid about stuff when it could be going to better things bums me out when I think about it.