And even though we've managed to pull back from the precipice for now, we're going to have to sit with the mess we've made of this country (and the world) for decades to come.
People are much more hostile and selfish than I believed they were.
@jakebe It's been a particularly bad hit to optimism the last 4 years. There was more I wanted to say, but none of it's coherent; I'm sorry. All we can do is keep going and try to remember not everyone is like that, and maybe there's enough not-everyones out there to save our collective asses. This isn't coming out right... erh.
It's hard to say how much seeing that has affected me. I'm moving forward in 2021 hopeful, more grateful and mindful of the people in my community who look out for each other.
But I'm also a lot more wary, a lot less willing to be open about things. These are not safe times.