It's really hard to refute my brain when it tells me I'm on permanent unloveable status when I happen to find all of its evidence irrefutable compelling and convincing.
My meatbrain is defective. Can I exchange it for a computer yet?
@Leucrotta That would probably work more often if didn't present/frame my evidence as objectively as I can. Engineer brain is calculating in all things, even self-damage.
@kelseyhusky but I gotta say the ability to think "this is just some sort of periodic depressive thing and not an objective reality" is an incredibly useful thing to throw at the negative messages. I am very glad you're able to do that; it took me 'way 'way longer to figure out an equivalent. You rock!