Neg, Isolation
I can remember the first time I intentionally isolated from my expected peers. The cafeteria at North Jr High also doubled as its theater, with a very shallow proscenium. And I really didn't have anyone to sit and each lunch with, so one day, I sat on the stage stairs, with my lunch I brought from home, and the relief at not having to talk or feel pressured to interact with all these strange and loud beings I didn't understand was so total it still makes me cry.
Neg, Isolation
And now that isolating has become this…lifestyle…for me, feeling that gap and emptiness in my social skills, It makes me really, really angry with my younger self for not figuring peopling out earlier. Because now I'm finding that i really can't get the things i want if I'm still hiding on the stage steps.
But getting off the steps is kinda terrifying and I hate that.
Neg, Isolation
@kelseyhusky take it slow and easy, this is a good space for that.
i was really similar, i hated being around most folks, especially from my own grade because i was bullied on and off by them
most of the folks i even wanted to be around were ahead of my grade so i would often just eat on my own, it was just so much easier during hs