🔶 KLCY AXIOM Prime @kelseyhusky@awoo.space

And now that isolating has become this…lifestyle…for me, feeling that gap and emptiness in my social skills, It makes me really, really angry with my younger self for not figuring peopling out earlier. Because now I'm finding that i really can't get the things i want if I'm still hiding on the stage steps.

But getting off the steps is kinda terrifying and I hate that.

I can remember the first time I intentionally isolated from my expected peers. The cafeteria at North Jr High also doubled as its theater, with a very shallow proscenium. And I really didn't have anyone to sit and each lunch with, so one day, I sat on the stage stairs, with my lunch I brought from home, and the relief at not having to talk or feel pressured to interact with all these strange and loud beings I didn't understand was so total it still makes me cry.

one thing about having a bigger space is feeling a little more comfortable trying to be swishy. Not something I get much in my current 10x10

Okay. Was able to get some help with the dumb ticketing system at work, so now i've actually got tickets closed to prove i'm doing work. Still want out of this job, but I'm feeling a little bit better.

Oh. Okay. Today is going to be a bad mental health day. Nice to get warning so early in the morning so that I'm not surprised later in the day by dark thoughts spirals.

Ugh. Stress is making huskybots unhappy. Had a small backup in fuel reactor last night during recharge cycle that backvented into the respiratory system, so not running on full charge today. Also dealing with dumb emotional neediness and envy, which doesn't align well with expected behavior outputs.

Can today be over yet?

I'm 20. I've just had my first online RP experience over AIM. I will be kicked out of school next year. These things are related.

I'm 22. I've had my heart flash-welded together after gathering its shattered pieces. I will NOT be joining the Navy. I will be paying my way out to CA using my refund after withdrawing from school. After I find my way off the streets. Mom has abandoned me downtown. Thank spark for free wifi at bagel shops and salvaged laptops. SOS to new furry Friends

I'm 7 years old using hot glue to assemble tin-foil covered cardboard and random scrap electronics from various devices I've taken apart into non-functioning robot.

I'm 9 years old. I've just a giant tote bag in my parent's closet. It's full of Porn.

I'm 18, second week of freshman year. I've just thrown up for the 3rd time today. In front of my RA

I'm 19. My mother just tried to kill me in my grandfather's basement. It would be so easy to turn the knife back on her.

Need to get some more machine/robot/synthetic swear words/curses/oaths. So far I have:
Spark
Seize (as in a frozen joint)
Rust
Null

Anyone have anymore?

I am not going to let bigoted bullshit ruin my attempts to have a good day. Not today.

Supportive, dedicated Loyalty. giving my chosen everything of what they need whenever I can give it. Some days it means I'm helping hide bodies, sometime it means I'm moving heavy stuff. Sometimes it means driving to 4 different restaurants to get food for everyone. No task is too unimportant if I'm doing it for my friends. and they deserve my perfect effort, not just my best effort. Because Friendship.

active-matrix
app
bi-curious
Caps Lock
chaos theory
chipset
digital subscriber line
homeobox
laptop
Mandelbrot set
moonwalk
netizen
plug and play
search engine
sticky note
terabyte
vaporware
wack

HT /@emanate

So, uh. it's been two days since I last posted. Been busy. Got a new job and today is the first day i'm flying solo without my training teammate on overwatch. Kinda limited in my functionality, since I have hardly any credentials.

Which is kinda frustrating, just cause I want to do more than just sit on my laptop and fake looking busy.

Also, OPEN PLANS SUCK ASS.

(I think that's it for now. Thanks for reading! #GatewayStation)

Mai, helpless until Solita was in range of the various clamps, waldo arms, and the stronger tractor fields of the docking ring, watched through their sensors as a single bipedal life sign slowly crawled from the bridge on the main deck back toward the row of life pods. A standard Class-E had 3, The Solita had 4, and only one was still docked. "[…oh ground, the mudding door is jammed!…]" sobbed across the still opened channel. "[…I'm gonna die out here…]"
#GatewayStation

(realizing I probably should've had this all typed out before hand instead of doing it on the fly like this. Hope it hasn't been too annoying.) #GatewayStation

Mai tuned their sensor arrays as the station's tractor fields slowly adjusted the Solita's trajectory to intercept with the docking ring. A new signal from Solita pinged at Mai's awareness. Mai acknowledged the communication handshake and opened a voice channel port. "[…oh Spark this hurts…everything's broken…trying everything I can…no time… begging to get an escape pod online…]" The hiss of an empty connection was loud, even over the local EM background.
#GatewayStation

A stuttering emergency signal screamed into Mai's arrays, signal strength flickering in and out of coherency. "[…ISS Solita dec…aring MAYDAY…ultiple hul…reaches…react…offline…caught…crossfi…emergency jump…amdom cordin… couldn't even…that far bef… field gener…ost pow…spun dow…oh shit…]"

May shunted the repeating signal out of active monitoring to focus on retrieving the damaged ship. This wasn't the first time a vessel had arrived at the station's coordinates #GatewayStation

Sensors IDd the drifting vessel as a Mark-E Starbridge. The ship was heavily damaged, with only emergency batteries left to run what little life support remained.

Mai's scan of the ship showed the main reactor in no danger of failure, but wasn't able to tell if that was because it was properly shut down, or was too heavily damaged to function, before the scan routine automatically switched priority tasking: tracking the lone life sign found aboard. A fading one.

Holograms, Hexagons, Huskybots, Half-pipes, Handbags, Home.