#drawing last night. A modeling video I watched converted a huge dragon model to a bat styled dragon for use in Ravenloft. I figured this was a nice vampire dragon design and thought a Ravenloft-y PC to fight could be a werewolf, but now I think I’ll nix the werewolf to show off the dragon more.
#drawing last night - there’s a little composition thumbnail of a more angular version I’d think might look more dynamic - but maybe this actually works as is? Also part of why I was thinking of Excalibur earlier was listening to the soundtrack while drawing.
#subpost an accurate map of the USCSS NOSTROMO, in which every room is carefully labeled "Jonesy licked his butt here"
*grossly oversimplifies the end of WWII*
USA: We can produce whole shiploads of M26s SO let's just drive M4 variants everywhere.
Japan: Increasingly intense strategic bombing means we CAN'T produce this prototype fighter better than the P-51, let's just dig in a batch of tanks which were outgunned in 1938.
USSR: This is basically what the Germans have except it's stamped out of the crappiest steel and also Warsaw Pact forces will still be using it in 1980
Germany: We'll have resentful, half starved slave labor manufacture an incredibly expensive, hard to repair [Sache] which teenagers will field against Brit/Canadian/Polish vets.
Earlier today, I was thinking that I shouldn’t really dismiss my hobbies or little hyperfixations, I spend/spent so much of my life on all these day job things which are ULTRA SUPER MATURE AND VITAL, so I can afford rent/gas/insurance/etc which is also DEADLY SERIOUS… or is it? With the exception of the food bank or medical office jobs a lot of it didn’t feel that much more important than my dumb little pictures, meals or books.
Lest we all think I feel nothing but pissed off, here’s last night’s #drawing. Wound up being a weird sledge, rather than a weird cart.
just this bad intersection of age stress ("the best years of my life are now long gone"), parent/job stress ("and all I have left is a long march until I die, there's no other future") and political stress ("and it literally can only get worse for the benefit of people I utterly hate").
Just a lot of my buttons being pushed about it being decided I don't get to have a life outside of someone else's convenience, like before I turned 18 and escaped from there.
It feels almost like everything that pisses me off is expertly crafted to piss me off these days somehow.
The whole "I keep de-fusing more and more of my life while the world gets bleaker and nastier, so I feel like I'm running at top speeds to stay in place;" I don't know how terrible I'd feel if all this happened when I was even 5 years younger.
#drawings worked on last night, since there’s more going on in my world than just a day job I don’t really like and the worst people running everything.
Lots of random gunk, but some drawings and cooking talk too. Obsesses about DnD and related topics. Left-leaning/profoundly frustrated politics. Black lives matter; trans rights are human rights.
Occasionally NSFW art and discussion, please do follow if you're 18+.