Pastelbat @pastelbat@awoo.space

Liiiiiike it's kinda embarrassing how long it took me to work out that
A) I'm not gonna ever be good at drawing while not looking at my hand, that's not a practice-thing for me (dyspraxia, hand-eye co-ordination, all that jazz)
and then
B) Why even when I acquired a screen-tablet, I kept getting disaffected & going back to sketchbooks or lapsing entirely (slippery surface amplifying poor motor control).

This has taken years! I only started using adaptations /this year/ for A causing me to constantly misclick things when using a mouse. I only noticed it wasn't an 'Everyone does that.. Probably?' thing this year!

But I'm not pissed at the wasted time, just.. Happy I'm identifying this stuff, and finding workarounds.

I think one of the hardest parts of learning any skill field when you have disabilities that affect it (especially in non-obvious ways) is working out: what's
"Practice fixes that"
"Practice will fix that.. But it'll take a helluva lot longer for you"
"You need to work out the pitfalls yr disability causes, and find adaptations"
and what's "No this is just not going to go away, you need to find an alternate route or technique"

B/c it's the kinda thing that more often than not you just can't.. Find accurate advice on (you'll always get A).

It's a tonne of individual self-learning and maintaining kindness towards yourself so you can recognise potential obstacles.

New 'hard felt' nibs arrived for the tablet. Let's see if this makes tablet drawing feel less like ice-skating.

If not, I'll try hard felt nibs + screen protector (which rlly I should get anyway)

I am so far out of touch with the Disnarvel movies

Also they really gutted Thanos' backstory & motives, huh

And why for a super-smart villain with power over primal elements of the fabric of the universe itself.. ..does he just use them to shoot beams of CGI at people

"Aha, mastery over reality itself! With this, I can shoot Purple at my enemies!"

TLDR: It is all very nonsensical, read the Jim Starling comics

Film: *shows badass character eating dessert, notice bad thing, eat some more dessert before leaving*
Film's Intent: "Look how unconcerned and nonchalant he is about fighting!"
Me: "Ah, he must enjoy dessert an awful lot too.."

(people I've newly followed who are likely going "who?"; used to be found at NeonYeen)

I think I just work better in pencil + paper, which is rlly very annoying to me, because I keep wanting to do digital art! And it's so.. slow.

And part of that is just the texture isn't.. Right? It's too slippy, my lines go too fast & uncontrollable (Dysgraphia affects my drawing style a lot, this is likely also a result).

I wonder if I could put textured transparent-something over the surface and generate some resistance without being bumpy enough to mess up lines. Do people do that..?