thought train
fox > firefox > globe > water > life > death > perish > meme > obama > jesus > coming > like a horror movie girl > jesus is trans > nice > would jesus have a different name because i think jesus would be a great name either way > like "jessie" or "jes" or something > did we name all jesses and jessies from jesus holy fuck
i like the rumble in my throat when i growl angrily
dunno what it says, "hiss" or "growl" or something but its a nice vibration
i'm sensitive in literally every physical, mental, and emotional way and i KNOW when shit's not right
i sure do love my amped up senses
Link to twitter and another site / fawning response to trauma / V useful imo
Both these things were really helpful to learn about as someone who realised they have a very strong fawn response to everything.
Knowing why I’m ‘too nice’ and struggle with boundary’s is useful to try sort that behaviour tbh.
https://letsqueerthingsup.com/2019/06/01/fawning-trauma-response/
https://twitter.com/samdylanfinch/status/1142480798890594304?s=21
i am very much the type to ask tons of questions. the more i know about someone the better
cute cryptid story
you ever walk into a general store in the dead of night
it's not a ungodly time of the night, but it's enough to make the single employee glare at you because they have to close up and just want you to hurry up
they peer at you as your eyes trail along the aisles, searching for whatever you need tonight
but the employee bristles as your form unravels, still just barely in their field of sight; your hands, upon grabbing something they can't note, shrink down into paws; your pupils dilate into very narrow slits; and your ears visibly twitch, crawling up your head and turning sharper and sharper.
the last thing they see before you disappear behind the back of the store is your shoe, which is left behind as your furry foot steps out of it, too small to be contained now
at this point they just can't ignore you, and run towards you, only to find a cat next to a pile of clothes and a recently ripped apart cereal box, nibbling on its contents. you meow at the baffled employee.
"meow," you say.
"did you just turn into a cat."
you lick your paw nonchalantly.
"c-can i be a cat, too?" they ask nervously, perfectly aware how this must look on the security cameras. but they're done. they're just absolutely done.
their eyes light up when you nod at them and curl up around their leg, giving them a lick. you know all too well that their wish will be granted. and what a nice wish it was.
i'm v happy w/ my new ref of scoli... i know it gets confusing referring to both myself and my sona as scoli sometimes, but it really does feel like both are me
i mean, scoli's been my persona/sona/mascot for so long, maybe 7-8 years. their design's mostly solidified, and i like being seen as scoli, this cool red dragon with cat ears and feathery wings and stuff
maybe someday i'll get a fursuit of them, or a scalesuit, haha
by popular demand, here's the final draft of the Queer Villain Pride flag I did yesterday, along with a link to a hi-res version here: https://www.dropbox.com/s/abew1ci7y5xzt9q/villainpridelarge%20copy.png?dl=0
again: pink for passion, orange for community, green for knowledge, purple for queer history, and black for evil, pure EVIL. feel free to use this for whatever. mwa ha ha ha haaa, etc
oh, looks like i'm back to @scoliwings
see y'all later