The obvious solution to this is to grind skills but it's so fucking hard to break through the feeling that getting to a point I'm not ashamed of requires more work than I'm actually willing to put it.
@starkatt I know this feel *offers hugs*
@xurnami :hugs softly: thank you
@starkatt I'm not awake enough yet to do more than say vaguely "it's okay," but I can recommend a book: Art and Fear. it is FANTASTIC for dealing with exactly these kinds of problems, no matter what kind of art, no matter what level of skill you have. if I can find my copy I'll bring it to the coffee place today so you can look at it. ;)
I wonder if I was ever actually assessed for dysgraphia when I was a kid. Would explain a whole lot.