Suicidal thoughts, mh --
@InTheLandOfTheRisingSun oh no, don't say that!
besides, the way you think you shouldn't have anything you don't deserve shows that you have a generous heart, and imo, that's the exact type of heart that we need more of, not less!
i know that you feel absolutely terrible, and i know i can't really change that--but i really hope that you feel better soon!
but in the meantime, try your best to power through it. you matter! so this matters too!
Suicidal thoughts, mh --
@InTheLandOfTheRisingSun hee. no problem..!
it's so easy to judge ourselves like this, and sometimes our minds can be just outright cruel
i know i have some pretty wicked double-standards for myself too, and if they get to me, it's hard to see how unfair they are until i'm out of the mire
i wanted to post that to help you through your mire too! ^^