anxiety (+)
anyway, this was the year i was going to tackle my anxiety!
it's time to force myself to get over it once, so it will be easier the times after that!
i kinda lost my momentum, but i can regain it!
anxiety
to top it off, these fears cause my seemingly-insular nature, because i feel like i don't belong since i'm not actually friends with almost everyone i am around
as a result, even the things i make that i'm genuinely happy about get at most a few seconds of attention, and then lost to time
but making nice things is the only way i know how to get the attention of others so i can maybe make a friend or two
anxiety
i literally have an empty discord room where i post things because my silly brain is not convinced that anyone who doesn't join would even really care
but i also want to write such unique bots for it that it might eventually attract others...somehow?
stopping to think about any of this stuff really shows how little sense it makes
@sara wait WHAT!??
@sara eck, that's gross
time to pull out the high ansi i guess
spoiler if you haven't seen hbomb ctrl-alt-del video
@monorail hahah oh gosh
i still can't get over emerging naked, reborn from a gargantuan loss.jpg poster
@imixstimsandkinks you're absolutely right
i don't consider anyone broken since i think that framing paints the imperfections we all have as "bad"
but that doesn't mean that others don't look at themselves differently--so maybe my message is also bad, actually (sorry about that!)
@Gargron gargron birthday, happy!
@monorail fwiw, i think you're a cute girl already..!
dysphoria is rough, but it won't be long before it'll be easier for you to accept yourself--and until then, know that we accept you! ❤
kink, dating apps
it's always fun when someone likes me on okcupid, sends me a message, and then blocks me
i have a section on my profile where i mention my whole abdl thing, because i'd prefer weird people out early rather than after they get emotionally invested in me (because i think that would be really mean!)
i know it's something that some peeps will probably never be okay with, and if i didn't filter them out from the get-go, things could get really hard
oh hi! i do computers, and sometimes draw stuff~ i like lo-fi things and cute aesthetics!
i also probably like you
(also, tagged #abdl ahead, soooo 🔞)