i have to be a little bit careful now, but seeing her so excited and happy was definitely worth it!
mysterious environmental stress
how curious… it never occurred to me just how stressful it is being at my parent's place until i got home
being home feels like the mental equivalent of no longer holding my breath–i laid down, relaxed, and actually felt comfortable in a way i didn't even realize existed, but also so-obviously existed before
i wonder what causes this now-noticable phenomenon?
i actually mentioned this place there too, since it seems like it could be Extremely Good for them
it's kinda like when you went to different towns in old pokemon games and the entire color palette would change
same roads, same buildings, same companies, same weather
and yet, to my mind it's as different as red is to blue
you'd think the two would be basically the same, but the feel of this place is so...different??
kink party
after that point, i started acting a like a human being and was pretty open again...
the reaction here was super-different from the munch i went to last--and also the one i kind of initially expected
nobody really cared! and to me, that's kind of The Best Thing™
someone even asked to do a spanking scene with me
kink party
so, it turns out i'm liked enough to be invited to private parties now!
but after last time, i was nervous about saying anything about diapers–so while everyone else talked about all kinds of kinks, i made some jokes, but stayed pretty quiet
i was going to go home early, because i didn't want to impose, but when someone asked and i explained, it turned out they didn't mind at all
one of the hosts caught wind too, and wanted me to stay anyway…so i did! with some regained confidence
i like how i just idly did nothing for ten minutes before realizing i was doing exactly the thing i was talking about
noooppe! don't do that, self!
time to go be bad at splatfest instead!
oh hi! i do computers, and sometimes draw stuff~ i like lo-fi things and cute aesthetics!
i also probably like you
(also, tagged #abdl ahead, soooo 🔞)