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There's a whole lot of "x looks good on your brother but not on you because you're a girl" that goes on in my family and I hate it.
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@Sparrow that is not allowed from them!!! heck!!!
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@vahnj well I agree, but I get that and "don't worry, you're still feminine" from them all the time.
Like, I get it. You don't see me as a queer person, you see me as an ugly, confused woman with low self esteem. Not the first to think that.
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@Sparrow like
You've told them right? That you're trans and that means you get to be a boy and stuff?
Cuz this is so gross and I'm so sorry
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@vahnj Anyway, it's complicated but part of me REALLY wants to transition and be a guy, and the rest of me is okay being non-binary and not transitioning. The guy part comes to the surface a lot when I'm online, which is why I come across as entirely male a lot. But in reality part of me is SUPER identified with being a guy, and the rest is more fluid/NB.
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I may come out to them as non-binary eventually.
It just took 4 times of coming out as queer over 4 years before they believed me on *that* front. Even now, they think I'm bisexual because I date both cis and trans women. It's super gross.
One of the times I came out to my Dad in high school, he told me, "but I'm sure some guys would date you" as though I was gay because I didn't have male attention.
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Anyway, I'm sorry to dump on you like that!! I know that's a lot.
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@vahnj Actually no, haha. I'm out to them about being queer and I've hinted heavily about being non-binary, but they get *super* weird any time I get close to mentioning that I feel like a boy sometimes (also, it's only sometimes, and I don't think they would understand what it means to be non-binary).
Honestly I'm probably more scared to come out to them because I might be wrong than I am to be right, if that makes sense. I want to be totally sure before I come out.