I don't know why I just can't stand talking to my roommate sometimes.
She's a perfectly kind person, & when I plan to hang out with her (like get coffee or play dnd) I absolutely enjoy her company.
But whenever she comes home, her eye contact and intense affect feels... Almost painful? Maybe it's just the sudden, feral encounter, going from being alone to being Social With a Person.
Maybe I just have a huge amount of trouble being "off" in front of people, or switching quickly from off to on.
@Sparrow i have this problem sometimes
I used to freak my roommates out in the past when I woke up cuz I'd growl at them when they said good morning
I do it to the boy still sometimes :x
Very much a "grah don't make me be social" thing but at a uhhhhhhhhhhh instinct level
@Sparrow yeah it's not anything personal too right? Hard to explain haha
@vahnj yeah, not super personal, except that she tends to be a really empathic, reactive person, which is exactly what I *don't* want to be around when I'm in a nonsocial move. So not exactly personal, but also slightly exaggerated based on the kind of personality she has.
@vahnj yeeeeah totally! I guess that's what I mean when I said "feral" haha. It's just like, gah, I'm drinking beer & watching Bojack in my jammies, don't make me have to Human.
At least she understands it though. She gets like that too sometimes, so doesn't hold it against me. I just feel guilty, because in those moments I reeeeally can stand to interact with her.