Well... I still have a job after all the shit last week and surprisingly, the Director of ProductOps backed me up and supported my desire to get the fuck away from my current team because we are clearly not compatible.

Now if only I could get back the week of vacation I spent a nervous wreck expecting to get fired because I failed to complete a project before said pto and broke own in tears are 13 hours of struggling on the last day before my pto because Senior SRE made me feel completely incompetent at my job and dismissed all the work I had done up to that point because the Azure DevOps Pipeline to actually deploy the code and create the infrastructure wasn't done and I got completely stuck and he was no help at fucking all at solving the piece I was stuck on.

So when I filled out my weekly gut check to my boss I explained the situation, my feelings and why I was struggling and my boss went right for the "I don't think you are passionate about what we are doing. It is not vector calculus* but it takes practice and dedicated -scientific- mind to do it well and I do not feel you are putting in the -work-(outside of work to keep up)." and some bullshit about how various undocumented pre-reqs were not completed by my coworkers but being marked as completed is "Just part of the job" (despite this being the 4th Azure DevOps Project we have setup and onboarded an engineering team onto in the last 3 months but no one but me thought to write a fucking checklist and document the process to get everything working but me.. after I went through all the bullshit lost time troubleshooting shit to find some basic setup tasks and permissions were not done by the person who said they did it all and handled the last 3..)

He also took some not so subtle jabs at my ADHD and how he felt after two weeks the accommodations the team made weren't working despite the effort I was putting into them (a 5 minute sync up meeting with Senior SRE in the afternoon.. and me spending 30-40 minutes most days writing a work journal and direct linking code commits, tickets and documentation related to the work I did that day)

Finally ending in offer to talk with the director about transferring me to another team.

I am kinda rambling to get this off my chest.

Anyway.. yesterday I had a zoom call with him... and the Director of our org and the director completely backed me up.

Upside.. I am definitely moving to another team, probably on the tooling and internal services side of the house.

All of that side of the business is in AWS. YAY. I mean I hate Amazon... a lot.. but Azure is so frustrating to work in and shit is often buggy, undocumented or old docs don't match new API and stuff. Or recommend things like "Then put the access key in plain text in your pipeline yaml" because doing it properly is a huge pain the ass.

Downside: Unless there is someone that immediately wants to transfer to the AzureOps team it will probably take 45-60 days to go through HR and get a new req for me to move into. Nobody sane would want to be on call for the Janus project (Which Azure Ops is responsible for) and I suspect whisper networks would have not nice things to say about my manager since basically all of the Janus Ops team quit... and I'll be the second person put under him to request a transfer.. the other was from my old team after we got absorbed by the Azure Ops team.