Wobbly One Of Myriads @wobblewuffess@awoo.space

Ugh... me today. I want to talk and hang out. My voice today. Hey your throat is all dry and here is you losing you voice. Also brain, remember we have pathfinder tonight, that requires a lot of talking.
Me... okay I guess today is a day of quietly drinking warm tea.

Blah... booster is kicking my ass, not as much as the original shots but still ended up taking today off work.

Gah, there is like one thing I hate after almost a decade of HRT.

It takes... so much -effort- to get a good climax. Like I can have them... they are good, way better than before HRT and fuck, I love having huge, sensitive tits and fun to play with nipples... but damn.. it takes like hours of effort to get a -good- climax and if left to my own devices, most of the time I just don't have the energy to do by myself.

So randomly being horny can be... fucking annoying. Half assed, low effort climax just sucks or like worse... doesn't happen!

Not sure why I'm rambling about this.. but am I. Probably because I'm vaguely horny and I might delete this rambling later.. might not. Just weird experiences put out into the aether.

Back on this. It was so DAMN GOOD!

Made me mad as fuck at Cas Anvar all over again because Alex has a couple of really amazing POV moments that are so heartfelt and full of goodness.

Holden comes back to being Holden one last time and a certain porkpie hat wearer deadpans "Well this can't be good." Just damn. Holden's internal dialogue agonizing over whether something is the right thing to do or not is just.. fucking damn.

I'm sad we'll never see Wes Chathman deliver the last lines of book from Amos Burton, Last Man Standing because they were perfect. He would do them justice.

Sure, lots of questions get left unanswered and purposely so, as there is no way for the characters to answer them and sometimes Angry Eldritch Gods In The Antic should remain as such.

Damn... Holy Fuck James S.A. Corey aren't pulling any fucking punches

"We collect the most astonishingly brave people, don't we?"... "And then we watch them die."

Like damn. Anyway, in case y'all were wondering, Leviathan Falls is fucking good.

Am literally my own worst enemy sometimes.. also I didn't fucking comment why I added that to my default pre-commit and git config stuff...

Apparently, I defeated myself.. a year ago.

So I maintain a "Set up new computer for work script" that slaps together my preferred tools and configuration and does a bunch of nifty things like setting up pre-commit hooks for git and stuff.

At some point when I was working at Barracuda I added a pre-commit hook to my script to always run chmod -x on .sh files.

For the last week I have been pulling my hair because a shell script I need to run in a container was having permission issues.

I hate docker exit codes.

for example:
126 - permission denied or can not execute command
127 - unrecognizable characters or improperly escaped characters or shell script syntax errors.

Why the fuck are these not broken up in to separate error codes?

Like.. getting 126.. either permissions on a file/directory are messed up or can't execute whatever command.

127 - just a fucking mess, good luck!

Also Fuck Lily Cade and the fucking horse shit she rode in on. Fuck the BBC for publishing that hate speech. I am so fucking sick of this shit. It is every fucking piece of hate rhetoric from the last 2 centuries on fucking repeat just with word replacement.

If you have ever fucking wondered why I have fucking clung to firearms ownership and training as like one of the last vestiges of where I grew up this shit is why. "I'd execute every last one of them personally [trans-women]." Holy fuck.

Fucker that let that go to fucking release should be kicked repeatedly somewhere tender. Because this is going to get people hurt and it is going to get people fucking killed. The police aren't going to fucking help anyone but Capital. Your fucking neighbors aren't going to fucking help you.

I can't process or understand this fucking Hate, where it comes from. The desperate need to Other humans. But I can fucking grok the results of it and how allowing people to brazenly speak it will cause it to spread and cause violence, suffering and death. For no other fucking reason than being different.

So who do trans-folk have to turn to? Fucking nobody other than ourselves and handful of LBGTQIA Allies but lets be honest. The chance that someone who is not in our situation will stand up and try to stop violence at the risk of their body is incredibly low.

I'm getting ramble-y but to be clear, I understand that for the average trans-person having a firearm or any sort of defensive weapon is dangerous, because we are so traumatized by the world that lots of us are at risk just by having such a tool in our homes but nobody else is going to defend us.

I have been miserably angry at the world and everyone all day.. so I might step away for the evening and maybe have some mood altering substances.

Cooked some local raised salmon for the first time in -ages- 2.2lb filet, rubbed with garlic, salt, black pepper and chili flakes and small amount of irish gold butter and wrapped in foil, baked ~375F until just right (fork can lift off the skin but dry.

Sooo damn good, it has been a few years since I cooked fish, glad to see I still got that.

And then she @ me to share the fact she has considered commissioning NSFW art of her tiefling characters so someone with a good handle on color theory could tell her what color their nipples should be xD

Which is totally fair! Colors are hard and sometimes seeing differences side by side helps a ton but also...

now I have a NYT best selling author tweeting about tiefling nipple colors on my timeline at me directly xD