mood, social (-ish)
Meanwhile, I've been getting that awful feeling again, that I've pretty much drifted out of the lives of most of the locals, and it's basically my fault.
It is, really. I know I definitely withdrew good and hard after the fight with Keet and Orrery. I walked away from a lot of community spaces, like the Slack and the Eyrie rituals. And I don't really feel like there's a non-awkward way back into them.
re: mood, social (-ish)
@Balinares To whom? Kristy and Jessie, not really. I've at least got an "inside contact" there to give me status updates. And I've finally come to terms with the fact that the best thing for them is going to be just leaving them be.
I've already resigned myself that that's probably going to be forever; it would be nice to learn differently someday, but I've sworn off trying to force it. It'd be neat if something could happen there... but I'm fairly certain it can't. :|
re: mood, social (-ish)
@Balinares Yeah. I mean, I don't want to delve into the details too much here, but... I still don't actually *know* what caused the final lecture from Keet that ended it all. I said something to Orrery that I'd worried was _awkward_, but was never meant as hostile. I really thought everything was fine, then found out the next day she'd blocked me, and when I asked Keet what happened, because I was genuinely confused... she tore into me. So... yeah. No real closure there.
