It's busy times, so I don't know if I really *could* do a lot of socializing anyhow. But I admit, I do really miss the big-group stuff.

I've avoided the rituals partly to give K and O a little space, and partly 'cause... honestly, the Celtic ritual calendar has never really spoken to me? But I'm super-glad they're happening.

Anyhow, dunno. Been torn between being bolder & Sparing You The Burden Of My Stripey Boorishness? 🐯​

But let's get sushi sometime, or something?

@zebratron2084 I do want to hang out if schedules line up. Kinda feel bad that I will hopefully get to Seattle about when y’all bail out.

@zebratron2084

Face-to-face sometime soon, maybe before Thanksgiving, for Reasons?

@Cerulean Yeah, that would be good. Reasons. *hug*

@Cerulean Yikes, I had not realized how soon Thanksgiving is coming! How about shortly thereafter? :)

@zebratron2084 yes most definitely! now that I am back from CO... but give me a little while to let my Social Meter come back down a bit, say next week? :D

@troodon Mmmaybe week after? I'm looking at having to sneak in a bunch of healthcare appts on short notice 'cause of Insurance Clusterfuck, and my vestigial logistics brain is busy running around in circles going waaaaaaaugh currently. :)

@zebratron2084 fair enough! I'll poke you sometime next week to see if you've got an idea of what might be a good time for you. and meantime, *bitebitegnaw* :D

@troodon 🐯​❤️​❤️​❤️​

@Balinares To whom? Kristy and Jessie, not really. I've at least got an "inside contact" there to give me status updates. And I've finally come to terms with the fact that the best thing for them is going to be just leaving them be.

I've already resigned myself that that's probably going to be forever; it would be nice to learn differently someday, but I've sworn off trying to force it. It'd be neat if something could happen there... but I'm fairly certain it can't. :|

@Balinares As for the others... sounds lovely, and the sentiment's appreciated. Just, if I come up in conversation, mention that I miss 'em. That's another problem -- everybody's so scattered these days, I've even lost track of who I've lost track of. :|

Thanks. Even just having _anybody_, especially you, reply to and bother to care... that's a big comfort. *hugs tight*

I just can't believe how it all went so wrong so fast. I'm still reeling pretty badly.

@Balinares I think mostly I just needed to say all that above to ward off that paranoid self-hatey inner voice of "OK, it's gotten real quiet. I'll bet everybody's gotten sick of me and has realized I'm a total irredeemable jerk. Might as well do everybody a favor, by detaching myself and getting to work on the NOLA stage of my life, instead of trying to force something nobody else seems to want."

When the truth is probably everyone else is just stupid busy like I am. 😺​

@Balinares Yeah. I mean, I don't want to delve into the details too much here, but... I still don't actually *know* what caused the final lecture from Keet that ended it all. I said something to Orrery that I'd worried was _awkward_, but was never meant as hostile. I really thought everything was fine, then found out the next day she'd blocked me, and when I asked Keet what happened, because I was genuinely confused... she tore into me. So... yeah. No real closure there.