I think I have hit full on mid-life crisis. I'm starting to throw my mind into all the things I wanted to do in my twenties, but didn't because I was busy trying to survive and make it through my 20s. My mind doesn't feel any different, the things I want aren't different, but my circumstances and resources have changed drastically from where I was when I was 25 verses now.
I still can't stop modding my car in my head, but now implementation seems feasible.
@zebratron2084 It's been my experience is that line is drawn between the possible motivations, and the actual motivations driving the decision. The funny decorations on that line are the justifications i tell myself so I believe my motivations are one thing, rather that something more shameful and self-congratulatory or delusional. But then, I've always been way more self-critical than is probably healthy, so, don't treat me like an authority or anything.