mh (---), sui ideation
my day so far: reading about roger stone actively advocating for martial law, arguing with peg because she didn't know how to handle my panic, getting bit by kitten and spending morning at urgent care, followed by big teary conversation with mom about politics and lost trust with her
can i please just die already
re: mh (---), sui ideation
but i'm now shut off in my room giving peg some space and i'm realizing that these days when i am alone i am ALONE, even when i kinda can't afford to be, and the transliminal flashbacks alone, feeling all alone and isolated and rejected in a houseful of people, are killing me right now
re: mh (---), sui ideation
Hey. I just want to acknowledge and validate everything you're saying. I understand what it means to be ALONE alone. I know everything feels overwhelming and awful.
I wish I had anything to make it feel better. Or repair anything.
I just want to say that I value and appreciate you. That your fear and anger and depression are valid and real. And that I liked hearing from you.
I hope things improve. And I'm here if there's ever anything I can do to support you, or make things even a little bit better, I promise.
*Hugs*
re: mh (---), sui ideation
*Hugs very softly*
re: mh (---), sui ideation
at least penumbra and i patched things up afterwards, stupid kitten just got overexcited and nipped me during snacktime -- then they tried to FOLLOW me to the clinic and i had to hiss and wave my arms to chase them off
all is forgiven, i scooped them up and snuggled them when i got home and they purrboxed at me so i got that goin for me which is nice