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Welp, mom finally dropped the Poignance Bomb I was braced for. We talked about what happens if my stepdad doesn't make it through the year, which is not at all impossible.
Rough conversation. We talked about how many of his friends he's lost in the last few years, including my mom's brother, his own brother, his own dad, and his son/my brother Matt, who was an amazing kid and we all miss the shit out of. ;___;
And it hurt a lot, honestly, because... it's like... how do you tell your mom "YES OK BUT I KNEW THIS ALREADY BECAUSE I HAVE CHRONIC ANXIETY AND DEATH TRAUMA LEFT OVER FROM DAD SO UM I KINDA PONDER THESE THINGS 5-6 TIMES ON A NORMAL DAY."
It's funny, mom was back to full good humor 20 seconds after we finished talking, and that just makes me feel worse, because... god, it reminds me she just has to live immersed in this every day. And I feel powerless and horrible, all reminded that EVERY story on this miserable planet ends with a tragedy and I'm gonna lose EVERYONE someday.
I could use... anything. Anything. I'm reeling. I dunno. Anything you can offer.
re: family (~/-), mh (--)
@001zlnv i mean it couldn't hurt, sounds better than my FIFTH playthru of the 10-hr strong bad email compilation
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@zebratron2084 so, um, I find this comforting, but my sister and I are finally talking with my parents about planning for their estate and wills this year. Do you need resources for that? To talk about with your stepdad now?
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@eredien Nah, but you're right that it's a good and important thing. I might ask for help when the time comes. The thing for now is, luckily my mom is healthy as a bear and METICULOUSLY keeps our family records together.
We have, sadly, already discussed that she's breaking down and getting me a safety deposit box for all the heirlooms that are coming to me, because she can no longer trust my increasingly shitty stepsister not to come around looting the moment anything happens to one or both of our parents. >___<
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@eredien I also gave her my solemn vow that if by some bizarre tragedy she does go before him, he was NOT going to end up in a nursing home except as an absolute last resort and my stepsister would NOT be the final arbiter of his fate. I will dump her in a river to prevent this if I have to. -____-
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@zebratron2084 good for your mom!
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@zebratron2084
would a funny youtube review of a game about time traveling druids and a cop who levitates like vivec help?