mood (-)
I had a big old impassioned speech planned regarding an ideological matter, and I was just about ready to start banging it out, and then I realized I just don't have any more fight left in me.
So I'll just slink back up the mountain and sulk and overeat. But honestly? It's fine. One of two things will happen: there'll be a younger, fiercer, better version of me to fill in the gap, or the world will end specifically because I fucked off and went back to shitposting about 90s comedies. I suspect it'll be the first one.
I really am okay. Frankly? I'm *braced* for the future. I'm downright stoic. I just feel so fucking old.
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@Leucrotta Wasn't you, hun! I mean, it wasn't anybody, in the sense that it's a general community mood I'm uptight about. I'm not subtweeting anybody anyhow, I swear to Bast. It really is about me, and the crushing sensation of just... not being as young and fierce and idealistic as I used to be. I just feel like I'm taking the coward's way out by substituting politeness for honesty, and I had to say *something* about it or lose it completely, yanno? <3
mood (-)
@zebratron2084 I feel much the same way
I feel so bitter and jaded about things and seeing younger folks hold similar beliefs that I had to unlearn the hard way by seeing the times I thought I was fighting for a revolution unravel
and maybe I'm just not really appreciating the differences between 2011 and 2024, because this is honestly far more than I ever expected even at my heights
I hope so
I don't want to be a 60 year old still trying to get people to see the basic rotteness
mood (-)
@zebratron2084 I want this to be something new and not just the culling of this generation's left half like what happened to the baby boomers
mood (-)
@zebratron2084 like this same thing was happening literally 56 years to the day
https://exhibitions.library.columbia.edu/exhibits/show/1968/bust
I don't want to see it again in prep for my 100th birthday
mood (-)
You still have fight left in you... you just need far more nap time and ointments on your sore spots, now.
... speaking o' which, I should get sleeping...
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@zebratron2084 I apologize if I stepped on your toes, which is possible as I'm pretty sure I'm on the wrong side.