Empress of Mars: Undisputed @zebratron2084@awoo.space

I keep getting these little glimpses that there are a lot more of "us" out there than I thought, for many different definitions of "us," and it makes me happy. (My god, some of us might even not live in Seattle! ;p )

"Friends, they might think it's an organization..."</arlo_guthrie>

God, this feels good. After three weeks of constant dealing with petty bureaucracy... the only thing left on my to-do list is "fly home to Ohio."

Dragons, warn any friends you have in the Oklahoma area -- especially if they're green. The humans are acting up again...

https://www.reddit.com/r/ChoosingBeggars/comments/a6zh4a/fantasy_beggar/

Had a nice day out with @anthracite, actually. Saw Spiderverse, had cake. But I haven't been able to shake this weird depressive, nostalgic funk since we got home.

You know, I'm just going to blame bad neurochemistry. Probably did way overdo the carbohydrates today. If there's a real problem, soon I'll have two weeks in Ohio to contemplate it, I guess.

A lot of stuff just still feels super-weird to me after all this past year's losses. Phantom friendship syndrome, or something. At least it'll make it that much easier to leave, which was going to have to happen anyhow.

I'm okay. I don't trust this bad mood. Things are fine. I'm just a little heartachey and I miss a lot of people and I still worry a little bit every day that I've failed or annoyed everybody. But I'm doing better than I was.

feeling cute might delete later

https://i.imgur.com/ImbXeHZ.mp4

Morrissey's legendary cover of "Smells Like Teen Spirit," recorded via astral possession in 1991:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S0MzeMfcGxA&feature=youtu.be

(Fun fact: for six weeks after this incident, Kurt Cobain could _only_ eat meat, and his tears were jet black.)

who's goin

i mean i'm not down on these people, they bring me food and thus by martian law i am sworn to honor them. i'm just curious if there's some kind of naturalistic phenomenon going on here, perhaps some hidden ecological pressure.

why the hell do 70% of my bitesquad drivers have walter white mustaches

@Trouffee@mastodon.social Thought of ya. <3 https://www.curbed.com/2018/12/4/18124593/barely-maps-peter-gorman

#maps

Disregarding all the ugly sociopolitical context it exists in spite of... this film clip is so pure and good and sweet. <3 I hope both its subjects had wonderful lives despite everything.

https://news.uchicago.edu/story/silent-film-black-couples-kiss-discovered-added-national-film-registry

I think I'm about due for a species change. The last year has been the most intense period of change-- and willfully trying to shed old personality traits-- that I've been through since I was that damned lavavixen.

Also, I drifted back to feline mostly as a way of dealing with close-quarters living with Anthracite. A little mooncat is unobtrusive and easy to live with (except when she's looking over your shoulders trying to do your paperwork for you). Hell, even a Martian tiger can be housetrained. And neither is especially _needy_, which feels like a big thing that got me into trouble at Transliminal.

But Anthy and I have settled into each other a lot easier than I expected, and well... a lot of the things the cats were dreamt up for no longer exist for me. And I don't need to feel like the cozy feline center of my world in order to matter, anymore.

Honestly... after the past year... I don't feel like I need to matter much at all. I withdrew almost completely and survived. And now I'm heading into a new environment, one where I'll have no contacts, no support but Anthy... and a ton of opportunity.

So, no more social animals for me. Maybe I'm not cut out for them. I'm something of an exile, for reasons I largely deserved, and you know... self-sufficiency sounds pretty good.

So what now? Crow? Coyote? Rat? I love all those scrappy little urban creatures, the ones that aren't *dangerous* exactly, but put a little bit of pressure back on human expansion. The ones that are clearly in the wings, waiting for the humans to fuck up so they can take over. It's all a bit fraught, since I feel like I'm intruding on @acetone_kitten's territory -- is it weird to copy your ex's species? -- but hey, if anything anywhere is open-source, it's a coyote. :)

You heard it first from Looper, folks: EVERY. SUPER. HERO. HAS. BEEN. CONFIRMED. FOR. AVENGERS. 4.

All of them. Squirrel Girl. Ambush Bug. Brother Power the Geek. Power Pack. The Newsboy Legion. The Canterbury Cricket. Alley-Cat-Abra. Mogo the Living Planet. Lion-O. Stretch Dude. Clobber Girl. Reid Fleming, World's Toughest Milkman. Sewer Urchin. BOTH the action and talk show Space Ghosts. Bananaman. Herbie the Fat Fury. The Flaming Carrot. The Culligan Man. The Michelin Man. Arm-Fall-Off Boy. And EIGHT guys named Nightwing!

What part of EVERY SUPERHERO don't you understand?!?! This movie is going to be a FUCKING BLOWOUT.

Dammit, Chrome. Dammit, FurAffinity.

Eyes are still blurry from the exam so I'll keep it short: I'm probably fine. ^__^ No "invasive procedures" needed, retinal drusen were small and crunchy just like they should be, and just gotta keep it monitored.

@anthracite has been singing "Autobahn" to herself all day.

Doing okay today!

Had a nice dinner out with @CeruleanK last night, at Uneeda Burger out in Fremont. Got deep-fried cheese curds. Regret nothing.

Checked the mail this morning and found almost all the bureaucratic stuff I was waiting for, including the rest of my insurance docs. Got to clear off _most_ of my to-do list in one go.

Am a little bit ahead on work, and basically enjoying the hell out of playing Carmen Sandiego for a living. The work outage is _definitely_ over, we are _definitely_ not closing up shop, and I should be set through around March.

Got the retinology appointment tomorrow. Still worried about the prospect of {UNPLEASANT MEDICAL PROCEDURE OMITTED}, but I've at least braced myself for every possibility. Mostly I'm just annoyed I'm gonna have to get my pupils dilated.

Heading home to Ohio late Monday. It'll be nice to get away for a bit.

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