Zeta Syanthis @zetasyanthis@awoo.space

Clarification to the clarification: That's a subconscious thing. Consciously, I know you guys do, but it doesn't help when you feel like you're bleeding out. >.<

Clarification: The "haven't been able to feel" thing was well described by my therapist. Can't really feel it because I can't trust that anyone actually cares about me. >.< (I've gotten glimpses, but no more than that.)

Forgot to post #MentalHealthAwarenessDay, but I have a couple minutes left.

Generalized Anxiety Disorder, so bad I have suicidal ideation on a near-daily basis. Haven't been able to actually feel anyone caring about me for... I don't even know how long. (Finally starting to make progress, though, thank goodness. >.<)

There's other stuff too, like that leading to some serious depression, etc, but that one's the knife in my heart.

@mawr If you haven't read Bytewave's posts on TFTS, you need to, btw.

Shadow IT (one of many)
https://www.reddit.com/r/talesfromtechsupport/comments/2c9ypl/shadow_it_but_they_cant_know_we_have_this/

And this one isn't shadow IT, but you'll love it. ;)
https://www.reddit.com/r/talesfromtechsupport/comments/3cqx3n/the_worst_password_system_in_the_multiverse/

@Felthry boops your beeps in the bope bat bou bleep blell.

@mawr And, uh, long live shadow IT. >.<

@mawr And I guess what I'm saying is this: I'm screaming into the void too. ;_;

@mawr And it is office 365. They just have settings configured to do that.

@mawr Not sure about money, as this is a 180k person company, so I'm guessing they negotiate a rate. I think they did it because they're considered business records and there are potential legal liabilities regarding them.

@mawr RE #2: God forbid your engineers would ever have a project last longer than two years... That never happens, right?

@mawr My favorite stupidities were:
1. When they initially decided they wouldn't both migrating email/files/contacts from one to the other and we'd just lose everything in 6 months.
2. They've now set a two year retention on emails. If you need something older, you have to ask for retention on a PER Email basis.

@mawr Oof. We're in a very similar boat over here, but have managed to finagle the Atlassian suite on a couple of VMs, plus our own servers. When we swapped from Google to Microsoft for everything, I can't even begin to tell you how much I cursed out the higher-ups. We're still not back to where we were on some things.

@IrisKalmia Oh gosh yes. I don't know how I'd be alive without music. >.<

It's not like it fixes everything, but good god does it help. >.<

That feeling when you had a really terrible day, but your friends still made you smile at the end of it. :)

Saw a meme re: What five movies you'd show a potential significant other to explain what kind of person you are. Thought it cool enough to share here.

Here's my five:
Read or Die OVA
Children of Dune
Amadeus
Sintel
Ladyhawke
Equilibrium (Yes, I'm a troublemaker and added a sixth. Sintel is short. :D)

@Irick Right back at you. <3 Sleep well, and dream of soft fur. :)

@Irick That's love, I'm pretty sure. :)

I've made a lot of progress, and I'll be damned if I'm going to give up right now, but anxiety is such a bitch it's unbelievable.

Gods, but there are still days where all I want to do is crawl into a ditch and die. >.<