If you can see this, I want you to know that at least one person is hoping the best for you, no matter what your going through, I’m choosing to believe that better things are coming. Stay shiny, friends.

**Zeta Syanthis** @zetasyanthis@awoo.space · Jul 17, 2019, 23:41

**Zeta Syanthis** @zetasyanthis@awoo.space · Jul 17, 2019, 23:41

Jul 17, 2019, 23:41

Zeta Syanthis @zetasyanthis@awoo.space

re: MH (-, sui mention)

So, the cycle I seem to keep hitting is this:

1. Mess up on meds at some point. (I just forget doses sometimes.)
2. My anxiety crashes get extra bad, because unstable meds.
3. Unable to work / deal with life in general.
4. Feel terrible that useless and never good enough and obsessively worry that my boss isn't /really/ telling me what he thinks (that I'm a terrible employee and am going to end up fired).
5. Crash hard enough from #2-4, esp resulting overwork from #4 that I mess up my sleep schedule and end up missing medication doses.

I at least know the problem, but stabilizing and getting out of this loop long term is brutally difficult.

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**Zeta Syanthis** @zetasyanthis@awoo.space · Jul 17, 2019, 21:55

**Zeta Syanthis** @zetasyanthis@awoo.space · Jul 17, 2019, 21:55

Jul 17, 2019, 21:55

Zeta Syanthis @zetasyanthis@awoo.space

re: MH (-, sui mention)

Little more stable at the moment, going to try to nap. Will respond individually later, but thank you all so much for reaching out. >.<

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**Zeta Syanthis** @zetasyanthis@awoo.space · Jul 17, 2019, 20:44

**Zeta Syanthis** @zetasyanthis@awoo.space · Jul 17, 2019, 20:44

Jul 17, 2019, 20:44

Zeta Syanthis @zetasyanthis@awoo.space

MH (-, sui mention)

I seriously want to stop right now. Just... not be. I'm hurting too much, I'm crying too much, and I wish I could be just a little less broken, and that day never really comes. >.<

**Zeta Syanthis** @zetasyanthis@awoo.space · Jul 17, 2019, 19:56

**Zeta Syanthis** @zetasyanthis@awoo.space · Jul 17, 2019, 19:56

Jul 17, 2019, 19:56

Zeta Syanthis @zetasyanthis@awoo.space

Regarding last boost, I'm not autistic, but I hurt the same way described in that article. Never good enough, never ever able to be worth anything. Push myself way too hard in response, and wreck myself in the process. >.<

**Zeta Syanthis** · Jul 17, 2019, 17:52

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**Micro SF/F stories by O Westin** @MicroSFF@mastodon.social · Jul 17, 2019, 17:52

Jul 17, 2019, 17:52

Micro SF/F stories by O Westin @MicroSFF@mastodon.social

A spaceship landed, and an alien emerged.
"Greetings," it said, "um. We apologise for abducting your leader. We did not notice her coming aboard when we were here last week."
A cat emerged from the spaceship and sat down to clean her paws.
"Here she is," the alien said.
#MicroFiction #TootFic #SmallStories

**Zeta Syanthis** @zetasyanthis@awoo.space · Jul 16, 2019, 17:36

**Zeta Syanthis** @zetasyanthis@awoo.space · Jul 16, 2019, 17:36

Jul 16, 2019, 17:36

Zeta Syanthis @zetasyanthis@awoo.space

Felt like absolute trash the last couple days, and I really don't know why. Slept like 16 hours last night, and a lot the night before and I do not know what's happening to me at the moment. >.<

**Zeta Syanthis** · Jul 15, 2019, 23:04

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**The Dragon Manual** @Dragon_Manual@dragon.style · Jul 15, 2019, 23:04

Jul 15, 2019, 23:04

The Dragon Manual @Dragon_Manual@dragon.style

RT @PartTimeDragons@twitter.com
Finally, there’s YOU! And we believe in you, no matter what!

#NewComic #dragons
Retweets much appreciated! ❤️

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**Zeta Syanthis** @zetasyanthis@awoo.space · Jul 14, 2019, 19:50

**Zeta Syanthis** @zetasyanthis@awoo.space · Jul 14, 2019, 19:50

Jul 14, 2019, 19:50

Zeta Syanthis @zetasyanthis@awoo.space

Laptop Recommendations?

Thinking about a new work laptop and I can pretty much choose what I want. Any recs? Thinking 14-15", Ethernet and Displayport (can be usb-c at mode) a must.

**Zeta Syanthis** · Jul 14, 2019, 17:08

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**Coda** @coda@beach.city · Jul 14, 2019, 17:08

Jul 14, 2019, 17:08

Coda @coda@beach.city

happy nonbinary day!!!!!!!

**Zeta Syanthis** · Jul 14, 2019, 16:02

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**Sumana Harihareswara** @brainwane@mastodon.social · Jul 14, 2019, 16:02

Jul 14, 2019, 16:02

Sumana Harihareswara @brainwane@mastodon.social

birdsite

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Nick Stenning @nickstenning@twitter.com

This might sound really dumb when I say it out loud but boy have I been surprised by how much of "engineering effectiveness" in a huge company is just finding the really good humans in other teams, building personal relationships with them, and helping each other out.

**Zeta Syanthis** @zetasyanthis@awoo.space · Jul 13, 2019, 21:57

**Zeta Syanthis** @zetasyanthis@awoo.space · Jul 13, 2019, 21:57

Jul 13, 2019, 21:57

Zeta Syanthis @zetasyanthis@awoo.space

So I kinda messed myself up with work this week (work did it's bit, but I let it, really), and ended up waking up at 1AM (basically Dublin TZ) last night. That turned really really happy this morning though, because I got fresh baked french bread right out of the oven and I HAVE BEEN EATING IT ALL DAY AND I AM SO HAPPY.

**Zeta Syanthis** · Jul 12, 2019, 05:55

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**JungaBeast** @JungaBeast@yiff.life · Jul 12, 2019, 05:55

Jul 12, 2019, 05:55

JungaBeast @JungaBeast@yiff.life

Commission for @twofold_fgc who asked me to draw a character I designed for them a while back.

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**Zeta Syanthis** · Jul 11, 2019, 21:50

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**Micro SF/F stories by O Westin** @MicroSFF@mastodon.social · Jul 11, 2019, 21:50

Jul 11, 2019, 21:50

Micro SF/F stories by O Westin @MicroSFF@mastodon.social

"We wish to speak with your seventh son."
"I only have six sons."
"Impossible! Are you not, yourself, a seventh son?"
"I am."
"But you have only six offspring?"
"No, Merle, my daughter-"
"Dad," Merle said, "they speak truth. I... I haven't told you, but... I am your seventh son."
#MicroFiction #TootFic #SmallStories #TypoCorrected

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**Zeta Syanthis** · Jul 09, 2019, 01:15

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**Sid** @interneteh@sunbeam.city · Jul 09, 2019, 01:15

Jul 09, 2019, 01:15

Sid @interneteh@sunbeam.city

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**Zeta Syanthis** · Jul 10, 2019, 15:51

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**🔶 KLCY AXIOM Prime** @kelseyhusky@awoo.space · Jul 10, 2019, 15:51

Jul 10, 2019, 15:51

🔶 KLCY AXIOM Prime @kelseyhusky@awoo.space

Support ask for today.

If you can spare, I could use a little loud love and support today. Good vibes, good things you think about me. Just... Tell me you remember me and like me, please?

**Zeta Syanthis** @zetasyanthis@awoo.space · Jul 10, 2019, 09:38

**Zeta Syanthis** @zetasyanthis@awoo.space · Jul 10, 2019, 09:38

Jul 10, 2019, 09:38

Zeta Syanthis @zetasyanthis@awoo.space

MH, middle of the night technical bullshit

Me, up at 2:30AM configuring MPD on my server because of an anxiety attack earlier that had me pass out mid-day? What, you kidding? That would neeeever...

**Zeta Syanthis** @zetasyanthis@awoo.space · Jul 09, 2019, 20:29

**Zeta Syanthis** @zetasyanthis@awoo.space · Jul 09, 2019, 20:29

Jul 09, 2019, 20:29

Zeta Syanthis @zetasyanthis@awoo.space

Upset Stomach (-)

Why is this always the woooooorrst. Bleeeech. ;_;

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