re: Work stuff, asking for advice please
@Leucrotta Your boss is doing the 'New Management' thing. I had the same happen to me 5 times over.
You're never getting FTE there. It was never a possibility. This was going to happen eventually once they noticed they'd used you up.
You were a Human Resource. And now you're expended, for their purposes. You were never going to get to be One Of The Team, you're not a Fuckmothering Vampire.
Go to Labor Ready for now, work a back-buster of a job, or wait around, get fired, file for Unemployment, and if it's contested, claim you were fired for being Gay.
And take that time to work on yourself, your passions, and really ask yourself what you're Good At, not what pays the bills. Try some new jobs, quit if they're Awful, try again. Learn to cook all your own food because you can't afford take-out.
It'd be a better existence than perpetually Not Good Enough for a manager who's making you feel that way, because to Them, you're Disposable.