Late night thoughts, doubts, and out of touch feelings
I think I might love several people in ways that I neither know how to express, or even really acknowledge to myself.
Not in love with, but love? My heart is a confusing place and there is very little certainty I have with it anymore.
I know I love my Doephin; all else is swimmy and strange after that.
It's hard not to blame the uncertainties on past trauma. Hard to risk the possibilities of betrayal...