kink
thinking about how much i worried about people learning that i liked something weird compared to the reactions i actually got when i confided in them
almost universally, the reactions i got were "wait, that's it??"
it's like they were disappointed it wasn't something wilder, and that i just spent so much emotional energy on the most innocent thing imaginable
kink, abdl
i don't know what i expected
them: "so, you are saying you like to feel cute and be comfortable in platonic settings by wearing underwear you like?"
me: y-yes
them: "get out of here, that's too hardcore, man. friendship over"
i legit thought i would be ostracized
and while there are definitely people who can be icked out by this kind of thing (which is why i cw!) it's almost funny how distorted my perception was
things i appreciate about being abdl
compare that to now, where i legitimately feel lucky that i'm abdl!
- i have a pretty-much-unlimited well of passive happiness in a place i wouldn't normally because of it
- it acted like a shield towards the Not Great views surrounding me growing up--since i was squarely outside their toxic status quo
- it's a pretty dang good filter for removing people from my circles who would cause my other friends to quash their own quirks
but, also!
- it cute (imo)
things i appreciate about being abdl
it's no exaggeration to say that being abdl is the source of a huge number of positive traits that i have now that make me who i am
ones that i wouldn't trade anything for~
and for all the interpersonal-kryptonite i worried it could become, it also has indirectly informed the way i interact with others to such an enormous degree that i feel has had the opposite effect; making me legitimately a better person
which makes me happy too!
re: things i appreciate about being abdl
@thingywott it cute!
kink description (abdl)
there probably aren't many peeps who follow me that don't already know, but juuust in case, i may as well elaborate!
tl;dr - i'm abdl, which for me means i'm someone who thinks diapers are cute, and having them as a part of my self-image makes me happier overall~
combine this with being asexual, and essentially the vibes i like the most are just comfy and cozy ones!
and i mean, yeah! it is pretty unusual–but i definitely overestimated how much it ire it would draw