Krissy @BigFatFae@awoo.space

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It's always weird to imagine struggling as a *fantasy* I *want*, but there it is. I want to be back in school, struggling to get to class on time due to my size, being an inconvenience that people still are willing to be friends with. I want to be remembered and loved, but also still kind of a pain... Just everyone knowing me for having accidentally smooshed other kids against lockers and stuff.

Drawn by Samael, him playing with perspective. Wanted to share. Just... that feeling of having to move a LOT of mass, the struggle, and feet baarely sticking out of calves.... A lot of really great elements here.
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The Stories/Tales
Void - Banality
Eye - Deception
Edge - Tragedy
Monument - Journey
Crossroads - Transition
Star - Prophecy
Shield - Justice
Treasure - Comedy
Loop - Truth
Ultimate - Dream

And that's what I got so far. I'm happy with the general idea. Need to work with it some more. Conceptualize actual art per card, who I could commission to do it, if I can even manage that. Maybe need to work in another suit or two, I feel like there's some concepts it's missing. And rework a few that are a little more edge case or where there's too much overlap or not clear enough symbolism. Please share your thoughts if you have any! Can also clarify thoughts on specific cards if you want!

Legion - Currently imagining a symbol kinda like... an upside T with 6 extra lines coming out of it, fanning out towards the top -Incomprehensible, the ultimate/final (Fitting that this was the one that brought me over the character limit, requiring a 3rd post all to itself, lol)

Star - A star - Fate, the divine, circumstance of birth, the immutable predefined self
Shield - A hexagon - Borders, protection, isolation, defense, home
Treasure - A 7 pointed star (imagine the sparkle in comics on a gold piles) - Fortune, misfortune, the unexpected, providence
Loop - Either an empty circle or the infinity sign, but not sure yet - Nature, recurrence, routine, history, future

The 'numbers' are symbols, they have broad representations and can symbolize very different things depending on the suit expressing them.
Void - no symbol - Inversion, absence
Eye - a monochrome eye - perception, surface level, single mindedness
Edge - A curved line - Duality, precipice, division, danger
Monument - A triangle/pyramid - Work, intention, construction, progression, improvement
Crossroads - An X - Decision points, confusion, becoming lost, insecurity

The Blade one cuts the world with, actions and consequence. The Crown that wields it in your name, the Masters we answer to. The Masks we hide behind and look into, the Actors in our life and roles we act out. And the Forces guiding it all.

(I may decide on more suits later, still a few concepts missing in the deck, but I really love the current setup of the symbols)

Forces:
Void - Nothing
Eye - Union
Edge - Division
Monument - Order
Crossroads - Disorder
Star - Fate
Shield - Kingdom
Treasure - Fortune
Loop - Time
Legion - Everything

Actors:
Void - The Dead
Eye - The Monster
Edge - The Rival
Monument - The Ruler
Crossroads - The Lover
Star - The Family
Shield - The Parent
Treasure - The Friend
Loop - The Child
Legion - The Stranger

Masters:
Void - Freedom
Eye - Obsession
Edge - Destruction
Monument - Progress
Crossroads - Confusion
Star - Prophecy
Shield - Law
Treasure - Greed
Loop - Tradition
Legion - Servitude

Blades:
Void - Complacency
Eye - Purpose
Edge - Self Destruction
Monument - Persistence
Crossroads - Decision
Star - Identity
Shield - Preparedness
Treasure - Tool
Loop - Routine
Legion - Strength

@mawr *Hugs shared, appreciated*

I hate work so much. One of my jobs is accounts payable. Except I don't actually write checks. I just get invoices approved and sent off to the person who does. But then I'm still required to give vendors updates on their checks, that I don't write. And the person who writes them doesn't give me updates.

It is so damn stressful and makes me feel like I'm constantly behind.