Krissy @BigFatFae@awoo.space

Why do I fantasize about this? About it not being my choice?

Ultimately a lot of it is coping mechanisms for a time in my life where I felt immense shame for being me. I still do sometimes. But this allows me to get around the worst of it, to explore something with the feeling of being wanted.

A lot of it is about exaggeration. About taking the idea of being wanted so far that the person doing it becomes almost a cartoon villain.

Maybe they become corrupted, demonic essence taking them over, throwing away their humanity. Perhaps they'll deal with their own localized growth.. forever being hyper or lactating in some way. Or maybe whatever growth they cause in me is permanent, unlosable, something that will stick with me for the rest of my life. Despite this, their desire wins.

An encapsulation of my interests... Somebody close to me stumbles upon some way to make me bigger. There may be consequences. Perhaps for me, perhaps for them, perhaps both. Whatever the case, they feel a twinge of desire. They can't help themselves. They give in and use it, consequences be damned.

eeee, oldschool dos edutainment games for nostalgia! :3

@Thaminga @neonNeptunian ./~ Jello Shots and Lemon Drops ./~

@neonNeptunian @vahnj @thefishcrow ....ooooooooh I understand that interaction from a week ago now. I hadn't seen this

@impiaaa Thank you for the clarification! :3

@impiaaa With 'replies' being 'to a specific toot' and 'mentions' being 'first toot, including a mention of a user'?

@mona@icosahedron.website @kara_dreamer@witches.town *Noms!! Always loved the butter and jelly cookies. 3rd favorite cookie, behind peanut butter and chocolate chip. Much nomf!*

Hey question about @ ing people. I notice sometimes it shows up on the public timeline and sometimes it doesn't. How does that work?

Does anybody know ways to get past this? I feel like I'm not making a lot of progress, tbh. I've at least let myself be open and honest about it here on Masto without a lock. But still...

@mona@icosahedron.website @kara_dreamer@witches.town *climbs onto horsie lap, takes up a lot of space, soft, mostly small bun* Myu!

It is very hard for me to feel 100% okay with myself. And because ageplay is a newer kink for me than weight gain, it's something that I struggle a lot to let myself get fully immersed into. I guess that's why I let it come into my feed more, is just as a way to force myself to show that people don't mind it as much as I'm worried they will. I can tag it, they can avoid it if they don't like it... Still. Makes it hard to FEEL little when full of shame

@kara_dreamer@witches.town @mona@icosahedron.website I hope lots of snuggles and pettings too! And cookies

Very much feeling little today and wanna just be at school instead of work, and be fussed over and cared for and not have any real responsibilities

It is an interactive explaination! Some degree of playing!

http://ncase.me/trust/ I saw this on birdsite, I wanted to share it because it really is hella hella good. About trust and how to make the world a better place.

Basically an obscene amount of timed growth, but with the option to resist it! Problem... Resisting it doesn't slow it down, it actually just speeds it up! Resisting it just prevents it from being *permanent* growth >////>