Krissy @BigFatFae@awoo.space

In SO:TL, you are tasked with bombing targets on a screen with white phospherous, knowing full well it's horrendous, but not knowing that who you're targeting are civilians. But you can't just... run away and try not to do it. There are no other story paths, you either stop the experience, or continue. I cannot stress enough that this removes any sense of culpability from the experience. You are just along for the ride.

Did you kill Toriel? Well, maybe you haven't noticed yet, it's been pretty easy so far... Did you kill Papyrus? Maybe... you weren't paying attention. But the deeper in, the more it questions you, grills you, and tries to point towards your power. Sans, at the end, finally calls you out, explicitly pointing to how much power you have. Are you sure you WANT this? Do you CHOOSE this?

In SO:TL, you have no option but to do terrible things. Your options are either do it, or fail to progress. How can your decisions be bad if you aren't making them? It ultimately turns you into a spectator while commenting on you as if you were an actor.

Meanwhile, UT acknowledges you have power. It says "I know you can reset. You can try as many times as you like to do this." and every interaction in the story is cognizant of this.

One thing that I still really appreciate about UT was the story's explicit understanding and integration of player control. Something SO:TL and UT share is that they both make commentary on your actions as a player, and how you are complicit in the violence depicted. However, SO:TL takes a sort of... easy road. You have no other choice except not play the game. And given that it costs real world money? That's just a copout, I'm sorry.

BTW, I just want to take a quick moment to shout out @Thaminga for being generally super cool, and being super encouraging by favoriting lots of stuff, and being an awesome friend worth having overall. Just... random shout out~ :3

Okay, this Mixer and OBS with FTL thing is actually hella interesting? I'm curious as to what they're doing to make it work. Regardless, I want to look into it more. Sub-1 second stream delay is uh, kinda a big deal? At least to me

Take away my mobility. That'd be hot

Hello hi good morning こんにちは I am already at work and I would normally just be getting out of bed now, I am a grumpbunny and you should deliver unto me pets and treats for this ordeal

@Mya HI!!!

Oh yah, it's fat bunny week, isn't it? Is THAT why my libido's especially active lately? >.>

What would you give up or burden yourself with, if you took on consequences to gain that power over me? <3

Anyways, just that idea of somebody I love seeing those potential consequences and diving in anyways. I actually have about a 50/50 love of both sides. I just want something to make the decision difficult, and see it made anyways. Seeing a struggle overcome by lust and ending in me becoming huge is basically just the hottest thing to me.

If you can approach that side of me safely, if I can feel safe, then I want the scene itself to be intense, overwhelming. Mock me, punish me, lie about your intentions, manipulate me into your blobby plaything while telling me I'm failing the diet you're putting me on, that if only I were a little better, maybe I wouldn't be a useless pile of fat.

As long as that feeling of safety is maintained, then that *will* be fun.

Sometimes, this coping mechanism becomes somewhat more self referential. Sometimes when feeling particularly insecure, the type of scene I'm after is harder, darker. Humiliation... Taking that person who wants me huge and having them also be terrible to me, cause shame in me. Approach the traumatic feelings I once had, but tinged with fun elements, to find peace with them.

I need to be ready for it, though. Emotionally invested in the scene or person.

Why do I fantasize about this? About it not being my choice?

Ultimately a lot of it is coping mechanisms for a time in my life where I felt immense shame for being me. I still do sometimes. But this allows me to get around the worst of it, to explore something with the feeling of being wanted.

A lot of it is about exaggeration. About taking the idea of being wanted so far that the person doing it becomes almost a cartoon villain.

Maybe they become corrupted, demonic essence taking them over, throwing away their humanity. Perhaps they'll deal with their own localized growth.. forever being hyper or lactating in some way. Or maybe whatever growth they cause in me is permanent, unlosable, something that will stick with me for the rest of my life. Despite this, their desire wins.

An encapsulation of my interests... Somebody close to me stumbles upon some way to make me bigger. There may be consequences. Perhaps for me, perhaps for them, perhaps both. Whatever the case, they feel a twinge of desire. They can't help themselves. They give in and use it, consequences be damned.

eeee, oldschool dos edutainment games for nostalgia! :3

Hey question about @ ing people. I notice sometimes it shows up on the public timeline and sometimes it doesn't. How does that work?