Ko Bunny 🐰🌺 @KoBunny@awoo.space

Izzy and I managed to talk things through to the point where we weren't setting each other off (and the pen's influence definitely helped on my end). We ended up going out for dinner, and taking some time to plan out meals for the week; get some shopping done and prep the first of said meals and his breakfasts. And I got almost all of our outstanding laundry done.

...a hecking long day, but at least it has ended well enough. x.x

Today was definitely what I would call tumultuous. Woozle and I had to have a talk about finances with each other; the shape and the form of that conversation burned us both out pretty bad and necessitated a mutual withdrawal to our respective quiet areas.

I realized I was starting to have an anxiety attack, and turned to the tool I had available (the vape pen). 2 puffs and a very surreal walk around the neighborhood for my exercise and I had centered myself...

Sometimes I question my place in the world and the community. I don't have exceptional artistic talent. My ability to wield words is spotty at best.

The one thing I seem to enjoy most is to listen to a tale told; to take it into my head as though to record it everlasting.

If I’m distant or quiet today please be patient with me. I don’t appear to have a lot of energy, I’m about to leave to deal with in-laws, and I am struggling with some thoughts about my role in one of the communities I am a part of (MtG). And I’ve had what feel like a couple of social fuckups on my end.

I’m gonna try to take today easy. Gonna see Star Wars with @trouffee and @emanate at the end of the night. I hope that is what I need to do today.

Also, in case you need some hope - people like this still exist in the world. This was recorded a year and a half ago. It brought me hope then, and the core message is still hella relevant now.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=piWo4200G0U

So take a moment and light a candle.
Help a friend in need.
Go listen to (or make) joyous music.
Or maybe do all of the above.
Find the light and help it grow.

We're going to want all the reserves we can get next year. It's going to be a year of fighting and frustration. But it is not without hope.

An hour ago the long night ended. The cycle begins again and the light will slowly, ever so slowly return to our world.

We hold vigils and sing songs and say prayers to remind us that it is our job as beings in this world to strive and fight for the light within each other, for when we do this we stoke the light within ourselves so that when the darkness returns we have our own reserves to carry ourselves through it until the cycle can start again.

Today was nice despite a lot of curve balls thrown my way. I got to watch probably our last Unstable draft, host the Lady Planeswalker’s Society, and follow through on a promise I made our community at the end of the year last year by giving someone a ride home. All in all a good day.

I'm in a good, if kinda lewd mindset today.

Kind of wish I could be tied up, held, petted and generally have nice things being done to me.

Possibly related: I finally don't have fucking tooth pain or swelling from the damn root canal today. Or at least I don't right at this moment and eating a meal without using just one half of my muzzle is _really_ nice and I missed it. >.<

Todays' been pretty damn decent. The last pieces of the glowtide gifts I wanted to give came together. There's one more to order, but..well..it's easily obtained.

Everything that came in at work has been dealt with, and the store is in a good shape to handle the next day. My only regret is that it's about 11 PM and my focus is pretty much shot, cause I have energy and kinda wish I could be doing more right now.

One of the hardest things I've seen anyone do is to compassionately engage someone who's viewpoint they very much do not share. It takes a lot of effort to listen to and effectively engage with the other party. And you risk a lot in doing so.

To those of you who can do that on a regular basis, I am amazed and impressed. I wish I could do that more. I'd like to think it's the most effective way to get one's point across.

Blugh. I dunno what I did last night to my right hand, but one of my fingers feels swollen. :P

Sometimes the world seems against you; the journey may leave a scar.
But scars can heal and reveal just where you are.

The people you love will change you.
The things you have learned will guide you.
And nothing on earth can silence, the quiet voice still inside you.

A gentle reminder that the journey is as important as the destination, and that quiet voice inside that speaks of dreams is a part of you. Don't forget to listen to it. <3

A few brief breaks aside I have an outline done that feels really good to me. Nothing feels forced and I genuinely look forward to writing all of the parts to this. Even getting ideas as to quippy / fun dialogue.

Mistress @literorrery​ was exceptionally helpful for showing me her outlining technique.