depression
The ideation is screaming at me early this morning. Because if I could successfully pull it off, then people would just scream about how I was a coward and hurt them, but there wouldn’t be anything else I could ever fuck up ever again.
depression
@Leucrotta proud that you're fighting
Hang in there 💗
depression
@vahnj thanks. Too cowardly and stupid optimistic to do it, idk if it counts as fighting.
re: depression
@Leucrotta I appreciate your optimism bias, especially under the circumstances. :)
re: depression
@Jssra the last 8 years I discovered that I’m actually an optimist (which is part of how I got crushed this badly, I can’t just build despair into my ego like my Dad has). A little like how I’m actually a jock, but in my childhood jocks were popular types who played team sports rather than just athletic.
