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Realized that when I’m stressed I already feel bad so judging myself to be this utterly unlovable moron is easier even without the association of being stressed “because” I’m officially a terrible person and possibly being told such, possibly at top volume.

@Bwee already following and a lot of animals are my favorite but, I still like coyotes.

the bisexual urge to pose atop high buildings during electrical storms and declare I AM VENGEANCE I AM THE NIGHT I AM BATMAN

@topaz Most places will want you giving them money in year long chunks, so there's always a by-state minimum time to give notice (I missed this one when a lot younger) and they *might* have an early moveout fee. In theory this place is eh, only as bad as anything else in Seattle. In actuality every time I deal with these people I want to join a violent Marxist uprising.

If you're rich, you look like a genius by default because you're surrounded by incredibly smart engineers, accountants, lawyers, and marketers. It helps if you have enough brains and charm to know when you're upsetting or charming people - which makes sense for someone trying to advocate their position in front of venture capitalists or boards of directors. A little philanthropy makes you look like a saint. This is Warren Buffett, Steve Jobs, Bill Gates, etc - this is the old myth that the rich are smart and charming in ways that deserve the money.

For a rich person to come across as less capable than their underlings, or completely charmless, therefore requires believing in their own mythology to just do whatever the hell they want while creating legitimate hatred.

Being clinically a narcissist helps with that but I'd also suggest that how you can be ultra-super-mega-incredibly rich these days helps with that because now even merely rich people you need to talk to will play to you same as any other underling (like an accountant, lawyer or engineer who needs the job) and there's nothing stopping you from believing your own mythology.

@topaz nope, this isn't "potentially a huge threat" but coming on top of the rent increase (what for? this place hasn't effectively changed!), LAST year's rent increase (I didn't entirely understand the need to actively renew the lease, so they wound up able to charge me for October at their monthly rate, which was ouchy), them needing access to peoples' apartments over the past few months, and me having to really prove I have apartment insurance, I'm really sick and tired of them.

@topaz Yesterday was rough - what I thought was going to be a longer term temp job canceled while I was en route to work, the landlords insisted that they were completely in the right to soak me for an additional $92.50 out of nowhere this month, and job hunting was frustrating. Today was quiet by comparison, but I did two interviews as well as the normal job hunt stuff.

@topaz *yawns, tongue curling*

Very long day

@topaz *tilts ears and barks a little*

*Cate Blanchett voice*
The world has changed. Much that once was, isn't. And much that is, wasn't.

It all began with the frying of vegetables of power. Crispy zucchini sticks for the Elves. Curly and waffle cut potatoes for the Dwarves, great lovers of starch. And beer battered mushrooms for Men, who above all else desire to dump ketchup on everything. But they were all of them deceived. In the land of Mordor, in the fryers of Mount Doom, the Dark Lord Sauron forged in secret an Onion Ring.

@topaz Thanks! Just... hit some stuff.

Realistically this is probably about a lack of color work plus how deeply I’ve been trained to think 1) I’m a shitty inept failure or 2) maybe I’m not actually a shitty inept failure but if other people are the special wanted people and I never am, then it’s academic (or is it?). Fuck, bad case of childhood.

Idk maybe I should just give up posting drawings to Bluesky where nobody appears interested, and keep that as a shitpost account only. This shouldn’t feel like some huge recrimination of how I’m a failure and a shit artist, but it DOES.

damn when Joe Madureira pencils on Spider Man don’t make you less upset that IS a bad mood

@erin_kitsune it will. Yes you’re being shown an unusually good job, but people are greedy and will buy into this thing gleefully to save a few bucks. I mean who needs to work as a compositor or touch up artist when they can just be another warehouse or retail worker and our ruling classes can rake in more money, right?