re: uspol
@piccalo oh yeah. My Mom is probably some sort of spectrum-y narc. But in 2017 my boss was full on fucking narcissist - reality changes every 5 minutes to make him the coolest person in the world, intentionally presses buttons, surrounded by people who completely support anything he says etc. He was Trump level, worlds worse than Mom.
I'm convinced Trump would still be a profound danger if his schtick were being the next Fred Rogers, but narcs plug into what they can use most easily, and that's literally the worst things about this country.
The only safe place around someone that bad as NOWHERE NEAR, that boss finally fired me in the most sabotagey way possible, and when the President of the USA is the narcissist there IS no way to be nowhere near him.
What I'm HOPING is all this big push to do multiple terrible things daily starts getting more and more mired in lawsuits, judges, Congressional opposition, anything so they just start stalling out and losing initiative.
@CoyoteTraveller at some point, read up on The Great Beast and the War of the Beast, and it's easily as big a tzimmis as the Horus Heresy ITSELF.
@kistaro oh wow. I’m also just floored by how it’s still a great track!
corollary; we're surrounded by and live in a place run by people who are not in fact all that and a bag of chips, but who have been told that or treated that way so frequently they sincerely believe they're fantastic omnicompetent people who deserve better than what's already pretty good.
logically, the opposite is true, where a not especially terrible person can be completely wrecked through indoctrination.
mh, journaling - - -
now starting to see it better;
trying to grow up with undiagnosed ADHD and trauma means feeling terrible when I don't understand, get bored with dumb shit important to the rest of the world, or am irritable. This opens me up to
being scolded or emotionally abused, especially if there's just seemingly no break, especially because that's a lot more constant if I don't really have any sense of a long term, which becomes
sincerely believing at some big underlying level that I'm bad or flawed. And if I'm constantly braced for *some* sort of emotional attack, such that I don't have resources to step back or challenge my idea, if I'm triggered fairly often (still no good sense of a long term), and have that as an underlying assumption
of course I'm going to go through life thinking I'm flawed, a fuck up, and that I'm waiting for the next something terrible to happen.
also, a short video about tank treads mentioned the FLANGE on "Little Willie." somehow that reminded me this exists
nsfw use of language
@erin_kitsune *promptly attempts to sing this to Daft Punk's "Bigger Faster Stronger."
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