@eredien Thanks! I am seriously relieved people keep liking the perspective, since that was actually pretty difficult for me.
@LexYeen gives new meaning to "shinji get in the mecha"
@anthracite Oingo Boingo lyrics unsurprisingly
@AliCatAD btw, I can't make this up; Pertwee wrote, and recorded, a poem with the theme as background, but it's just spoken, not sung. https://genius.com/Jon-pertwee-who-is-the-doctor-lyrics
This weekend's introspection fits into being this pissy/despairing today. I now feel that while self-hate *did* make me less likely to meltdown in ways that could be noticed and punished, the meltdowns were about overwhelm as well as just triggers, so the self-hate wasn't 100% effective; and the down side of greater self worth is being angry at my wants, identity, and safety being discarded for others' convenience at any moment.
@obscurestar except they won’t, of course.
There's an old story about a samurai asking a monk to explain heaven and hell. The monk completely goes to town on this poor putz, yelling at him about how ugly, stupid, unkempt, lazy and... he keeps going right up to when the samurai loses it and goes for his sword, and yells "THAT IS HELL!"
The samurai immediately takes his hand off his hilt, breathes, and the world isn't so utterly terrible anymore, and the monk says "and that's heaven."
I live in this story a lot too often for comfort.
und sie fragen; welchen sollen wir toeten?
und Sie werden mich sagen horen; ALLE!
und wann die Koepfe faellt
sage ich HOOPLA!
und ein Schiff mit 8 Segeln
und mit 50ge Kanone wird beschwindet mit mir
@Tuftears Thanks! Might color later.
re: vent
@Oneironott Favorited for "I hope what grows from its corpse is better." I'm sorry things feel this bad tho.
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