Rain Dog @Leucrotta@awoo.space

"Trump has only four months to live"

yeah well when my Grampa died it was 8 months after the doctors gave him 2 months to live, and this was someone a decade older who'd grown up in a slum and been badly injured multiple times

and even so a lot of horrible shit can happen in 4 months

so pardon me if I don't share the optimism

God forgive me for thinking of a death as optimism.

Gotta remember:

1) a neurotypical/differently broken person doesn’t understand repeatedly telling me I did it wrong, or just barging into my stuff to check it because I’m ’of course wrong, is off putting. The same way they don’t understand I’m not automatically thrilled to be stuck in an isolating, vulnerable place with uncompelling tasks and no obvious reward day after fucking day and am already feeling trapped.

2) or they could just be assholes intentionally and I have to deal with that.

Last night’s #drawings

I think, if you're going to do a video about your collection of Ravenloft splatbooks, modules and miniatures, you owe your viewers doing it in a fake Bela Lugosi accent

And I say this as someone who thinks Strahd should sound like Sir Christopher.

@GoodNewsGreyShoes well...

they were out at least most of December and January. Thursday there was a departmental meeting where they, and a few others, got kudos for working on this stuff - and I didn't, which made me feel that this was the actually valued good person. Friday they opened up on me with a batch of criticism in email - which I'm now realizing is a disconnect between where my brain is broken and a neurotypical person. They successfully convinced me I'm no good at this, and I'm still sorta there.

Fortunately they haven't emailed me since Friday and they FUCKING NEVER TALK TO ME, I don't know what I did to piss them off or if they're just naturally standoffish. I try hard to like and trust everyone and frankly I hate this lady.

yeah I think that CLUNK noise you heard was my desire to listen to this one YouTuber any more hitting the ground as it fell. Aside from "we want to create orbital data centers for profiteering and send our ruling classes into space while everyone else staffs warehouses" what vision of the future does the right have to fucking offer? How exactly is the technology and potential change in new ideas created by a move to clean energy, sustainable forestry and wider spread access to health care a LACK of imagination on the left?

FUCK you, dude. I'm sorry I wasted my time listening to you even if it did move my politics leftwards earlier.

@GoodNewsGreyShoes Thanks. Friday really deteriorated partly as a result of triggery stuff Thursday, and I'm still fairly nervous around this one coworker.

@Tuftears thinking of Wayne Reynolds' giants where he's like eh screw how they're only 10-18' in Pathfinder, let's make 'em *huge*

(9-12' is gigantic as you'll know from having seen those 12' Halloween skeletons)

@GoodNewsGreyShoes Thank you!

#drawing tonight

I run through the world thinking about tomorrow, thinking about tomorrow
I run through the world thinking about tomorrow, thinking about tomorrow
I am smelling like a rose that somebody gave me on my birthday deathbed!
I am smelling like a rose that somebody gave me cause I’m dead and bloated!

I keep close watch on this heart of mine,
I walk the line.
I walk the line.
I’m already dead, I’m already dead, I’m already dead, I’m already dead

Rondo ala Turkana, Mozart’s famous piece about australopithecines

The Immortals' "Mortal Kombat": BRUTALITY. ANIMALITY.
FATALITY.

me: assimilation! submission! ignorance! hypocrisy! brutality! the elite!

LIU KANG

JAX

KITARO

SUB ZERO

MORRIGAN

ANAKARIS

RIKUO

LORD RAPTOR

MORTAL KOMBAT!

these things they go away
replaced by every day
nightswimming
remembering that night
september's coming soon
pining for the moon
and what if there were two?
side by side in orbit, around the Ferris sun?

NOW AH KNEW A LADY CAME FROM DULUTH
SHE GOT BIT BY A DOG WITH A RABID TOOTH
SHE WENT TO HER GRAVE JUST A LITTLE TOO SOON
AND FLEW AWAY HOWLIN' BY THE YELLOW MOON

WHERE DO BAD FOLK GO WHEN THEY DIE
DON'T GO TO HEAVEN WHERE THE ANGELS FLY
GO TO A LAKE OF FAHR AND FRY
WON'T SEE 'EM AGAIN TILL THE 4TH OF JULY

#hooey #HOOEY #morebeer

Currently, I am sitting in the parking lot to McDonald’s because I thought I would get chicken nuggets as a treat and as a way of getting far away from the office, however, I am currently too upset to eat.

My parents are still around and goodness knows how my housemate for starters would react so I can’t take myself out, and of course I want things to be better than to just not exist, but I can’t help thinking there’s really no reason to keep going, looking forward to something is for people more important and worthy than me; I’d like to skip ahead to the part where I’m no longer here trying to cope.