Rain Dog @Leucrotta@awoo.space

I just need to do a good job on this video interview, and then I can make a couple of needed phone calls and cook breakfast, and THEN I can watch some drawing videos and maybe work on inks or watch a movie maybe; I feel very broken today.

believe me, I would prefer my daily tasks not to include something that also requires me to step myself back from suicidal thoughts. One of these days, I'm going to fail at that part, too.

@frost And, I came up with a fairly legit answer to this one, regardless of how much getting it makes me want to self-injure.

@frost yes and no.

There's only so much I can get questions like this without thinking yes, this is my fault, I'm a shit employee, I'm a shit person from shit people, the electrified third rail at the station is starting to look really good right now.

Thank you.

is there any reason you've jumped about from position to position?

yes, it's because I'm a completely untrustworthy moron singlehandedly trying to bring all my employers to bankruptcy, you're awfully clever to have figured it out from my resume.

oh no listening to The Clash has become listening to the best Exploited song and it's about to become the best Anti Nowhere League song

THE CORN IS AS HIGH AS AN ELEPHANT'S EYE
AND I THINK THAT IT MIGHT REACH RIGHT UP TO THE SKY
(and also, I'm nowhere near your job in OK, if you've even really got one, nice offshore recruiter person)

apparently a Schostakovich waltz and The Clash sort of morning

@wolfe that's really familiar, yeah.

#drawings today, stuff which was waaay better in concept before I discovered how difficult it is to communicate.

@kelseyhusky read, acknowledged. Really hope it gets easier.

I’m reminded of how much I loathe political cartoonists even more than I detest journalists. Imagine being able to draw like that, and what you use it for is gross one sided takes on difficult shit if you’re not even more active in causing harm. Nearly all furry fetish porn is honorable and worthy by comparison.

@rebe_gc @LilahTovMoon “that’s no moon™️”

my love of fantasy and TTRPGs mean I'm split about what's the best part of Conan the Barbarian;

* Conan's father telling him about the riddle of steel, full of world building and cultural richness OR

* the Atlantean Sword scene, full of mystery and wonder OR

* when the PCs successfully stealth in to capture the princess and then completely abandon their plan so they can set shit on fire and hurl big cauldrons of stew down the stairs etc

@anthracite doesn't hurt that he basically says she's a very wet lizard chick.

At least in Downward Spiral, the Dumped song is part of the ongoing parade of misery, as opposed to Pretty Hate Machine which starts out so fucking strong and then whoooo completely off the rails into every trans dyke's worst assumptions about cis men.

"can Democrats undo college campus branding and capture the working class" seriously, some of us have our lives on the line every time there are Republicans in office and it doesn't actually improve that much under Democrats, this is not the Bulldogs vs Tech game, so kindly fuck off to McMurdo Sound or somewhere.

okay, I am now done with job hunt stuff for the time being and can eat something and step myself back from the desire to cut my wrists that job hunting can (and in this case did) inspire. The sun is shining and in a bit I can draw, like what I actually WANT to do with my life.