mh related addedum;
Nearly every negative assumption I have about the world is rooted in stuff people literally told me.
I used to believe I was a comic villain, stupid, inept, ugly, and ridiculous in my monstrous anger, because I'd basically been told this. I used to believe by contrast that others, especially the people who were handing me tasks, were these amazing folks who had everything together and who wanted to be here, because that's what I was told. I was handed this horrible view of unquestionable authority and unsurprisingly turned out maltheistic.
And a lot of the world is about to become a total disaster - frankly I've been told that too. In this case it *is* impossible to avoid some news and given possible implications of things like the election or new covid variants, it's hard not to catastrophize.
re: what's been going on with me and my folks
@GoodNewsGreyShoes My parents' relationship to other people and to each other isn't necessarily that healthy. I don't have particularly good role models in that respect, I worry I tend to fall into some of the same problems.
Anyway, money with my folks is weird. I try to be very careful asking them for help, after a very bad incident now about 16 years in the past. It also doesn't help that I'm not sure how much I'm actually helping if any.
re-using the joke from Twitter ages ago;
I am Paul Atreides, son to Duke Leto and the noble lady Jessica, and ducal heir to Caladan.
This is Cringer, my fearless friend.
Fabulous secret powers were revealed to me the day I drank the Water of Life and said, "FATHER! THE SLEEPER HAS AWAKENED!"
Cringer became the mighty BattlePug and I became the Kwisatz Haderach, the most powerful man in the universe. Together we defend Sietch Tabr from the evil forces of the Baron Harkonen!
@ZeirosLion well yeah! In this case it's like drawing hopilites naked - making them NOT naked would look completely off!
re: what's been going on with me and my folks
@GoodNewsGreyShoes This is NOT going to sound good.
It's not all altruism - I haven't cut contact because at some point I might need money, my Dad has financially helped me in the past, and I don't see any other avenue to getting a house other than inheriting theirs.
They're definitely where I got the bad habit of self-isolating. Like, my Dad has friends from his old workplace, but pretty much everyone they know are people they went outside to see - they don't have anyone else over as far as I know. I think a lot of my parents snapping at each other is stuff people outside my family don't get to see.
I really wish my Mom's health would turn better but that seems unlikely, and I have no idea how we're going to keep doing this.
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