Rain Dog @Leucrotta@awoo.space

This might be age or greater artistic skill but I keep being blown away by color gamuting. One artist I follow is GOOD with black and white; he’s MASTERFUL in color. I’m seeing color choice push things to the next level in completely different areas; furry porn, MTG cards and southwest Gay culture.

Gesturing and yelling ARISE ARISE MY UNDEAD ARMY! CAST OFF THY SLUMBER AND KILL! KILL! KILL! in the vague hope that summoning screamy skeletons with frowny eyeridges, gets me tomorrow off.

Head like a powdered sugar hole. We’re talking completely Pershing-pilled, cruller brained. Absolutely frittered.

just a bad night on sleep in general

definitely having the form of hypervigilence where enough has gone wrong I keep expecting more to go wrong. I can now see sort of the thought processes that earlier, would result in going right over into terrible self worth, simply because in childhood one of the next things to go wrong was usually a huge harangue about how bad I am (it doesn't hurt that being scolded is something I fear happening at my day job).

#drawings from earlier today

this inspired by the way the end of Heavy Metal combines a ride off into the hills western motif and a saucer finally leaving earth's gravity sci-fi motif. Which really is accurate to what the movie is when you think about it.

All of today’s #drawings

* puts on Head Like a Hole *
* starts doodling people in trenchcoats firing twin mini-uzis, shotguns, chambering rounds in pistols, etc *
* it's the Devo cover! *
* starts doodling potatoes, people on pogo sticks *

bottoms requiring their tops fight is not actually a "Beyblade Battle"

a Build a Bear for 2025 where you make your own labubu

a labubratory, as it were

*jacob's ladder sparks*

*sings along with Low Rider*

drag
u
la
knows every street yeah
drag
u
la
is the one to meet yeah
dig through the ditches, burn through the witches
take a little trip and see
dig through the ditches, burn through the witches
slam in the back with me

@hi_cial 💙​

CPTSD tells you no, it was this way yesterday and last month, it will be this way tomorrow and three months from now. PTSD tells you that you need to scramble and NOW or there will be no tomorrow or three months from now, who cares how much of a wreck you are.

A gentler belief in an organic shift - whether that's feeling better in a few hours, or life overall improving in weeks or years, is a GREAT counter to this. Thinking this requires conscious effort for me.

But aging dumps me right back in C/PTSD mindset. Sure, I could slowly save up to replace the car or get a fursuit someday - but what are the chances some adult will come up with a way to destroy my savings and upend my life in the meantime? Sure, I could trust that drawing what feels good right now will help me get through the week and eventually be practice that adds up - but how long do I have before cancer or heart disease takes me out and I never get around to the big drawings I'd wanted? That sort of thing.

Does that make sense?

#drawing earlier tonight since more people seem to see drawings if I post them later.

the part of "The Coyote and the Cowboy" which makes me tear up, even if I think it's kind of a dumb (but fun) song

@Tuftears Idk, I like the idea of it going either way. I have this take on D&D, where I like the idea that outside of a few essentially otherworldly creatures, pretty much everyone's neutral, just people trying to make their way in the world.

GM: "Have you [the PCs] met Kelly's [important NPC] mom?"
Me: "No, has she got it going on?"