politics in general
related; I think the horseshoe theory of politics is specious bullshit. People are people regardless of political ideology and some of them WILL try to coerce moving in lockstep; centrists, with "clearly we're the rational ones, and you'd be a dangerous idiot to think differently" are no exception.
Although I do suspect that further left and right both feel there's strength in emotional appeal - that at the end of the day, it's better to be someone whose convictions have an emotional resonance beyond high-handed personal intellectual superiority, especially when there's something "real" at stake from self-congradulatory compromise.
two thumpers are planted
the worm may not rise for the first, he will rise for the second. do not get too close, the sand will engulf you
when he first approaches you must be utterly still and place the hook firmly under a ring segment. the worm will turn away from the abrasive sand and will take you with it to the top
... not stoned, just felt like watching that part of the movie and quoting it.
@Tuftears Thanks!
new slang when you notice the stripes
dirt in your fries
hope it's right when you die, old and bony
dawn breaks like a bull through the hall
never should have called
but my head's to the wall and I'm lonely
and if you took to me now like a
gull takes to the wind
well I'da jumped from my trees
and I'd have danced like the Queen of the Assholes
and the rest of our lives would've fared well
in the red you're better off dead
better off dead
better than the red dead sea
promise it to me, promise me the sea
people the people
big bellies banging bigger drums
they beat down on you
they beat the pulse into your shoes
shoes are made for walking you to shores of other seas
see the seas oh see the seas
that you've seen on the big screen
Today’s #drawings, working on fabric and armor, trying to add stuff learned from Iain McCaig and Wayne Reynolds, with some influence from big clunky armors sculpted by Westfalia.
there are just some really ugly things about American national myth which play right into what's going on now. While slums and sweatshops full of immigrants plug right into our myths about just plain folk versus the wealthy steamrollering liberties, I'd wonder if the "everyone's welcome and can be equal here, even us" mythology was way more a thing for my family than for the southerners I grew up with; that differing versions of American myth is part of why I'm not MTG (same home state).
@Kusimanse I am going to take the day off after all.
@Cheff even worse, I ALSO carry around the irrational believe that if I were to kill myself, I'd be further doing harm because I'm villainous and worthless. So I'm sticking around tho sadly sometimes it's for the wrong reasons.
@CoyoteTraveller Thanks!
Rationally, I know that a lot of different triggers got pulled and between ADHD and past trauma, the intensity on those triggers is cranked all the way up. IRrationally I feel like the worst shit in the world and my failure to kill myself is further proof of how fucking villainous and worthless I am.
I just have to hope that eventually my rational knowledge will become my emotional knowledge, on days like this.
@Tuftears thanks!
more journaling
The really uncomfy truth about me and wanting to be a professional artist is, it was always my indoctrination (you're good at THIS THING, therefore you should do THIS THING to make money) and my baggage (maybe if I do THIS THING, I can get out of being relegated to disposable convenience for the actually valued people, forever).
This is a pretty rickety scaffold to hang any sort of professional ambitions from, and faced with anything that fits my indoctrination that the adults/peers have engineered it so I can't go in whatever direction, I give up waaay easily.
Lots of random gunk, but some drawings and cooking talk too. Obsesses about DnD and related topics. Left-leaning/profoundly frustrated politics. Black lives matter; trans rights are human rights.
Occasionally NSFW art and discussion, please do follow if you're 18+.