Rain Dog @Leucrotta@awoo.space

Scoping out parks close to my new digs. I’m still feeling not great, but staying put won’t help.

okay have you considered that Jurassic World's "we made them look like what people expected out of theropods so plenty of Xenopus DNA but no feathers" basically screwed getting clean data for what actual dromaeosaur physiology was like, and just was "we're here to make bank on our theme park rather than some boring ol' research"?

Taking advantage of my Tori-hatin' housemate's absence to do all these dishes while singing along to Little Earthquakes.

And I ride to work every morning wondering why.
Sit in the chair and be good now,
Oh, and become all that they told you.

If I had a sidearm, I would follow Kurt, Chris, Rob, and Ryonasuke down into the darkness. It would be so easy to no longer have to be me.

But I don't, and the sun is shining and I'm gonna do dishes and play music instead. What does that say about me?

Ah yeah birdsite. Coyotes shitposting and artists remind me of why I stay, the spike of wanting to throw Molotov cocktails (and having to be a polite sharecropper instead) reminds me of why I can’t.

So glad the bleak despair from earlier cleared up; that was brutal. Circadian rhythm weirdness maybe?

I’m still... if you feel the need to say something encouraging or complimentary I won’t stop you.

@adeptomega@vulpine.club @adeptomega@sunbeam.city here are really loose redwood forest thumbnails from yesterday as mentioned last night. Hope you’re feeling okay!

Someone managed to step on my issues and right now I just can’t feel that I am brave, good or smart. Trying to remember though.

Underneath the chilly gray November sky
We can make believe that Kennedy is still alive and
We’re shooting for the moon and smiling Jackie’s driving by and
They say, good try.
Tomorrow Wendy’s gonna die

Please let me know if any of y’all are independently wealthy and would like to help support an artist while they do the slow grind of making/flogging their stuff. The worst part of day jobs may be inability to nap when needed.

And I was able to sleep for about an hour or less! So yay, my shittiest nights here are still somewhat better than the worst last month!

every time I consciously think okay, I'll go with it and stay up till I sleep, my brain goes HEY FALL OVER and every time I try to lie back in bed in a dark room my brain goes HAVE AN ANXIETY SPIKE this is being a bad night.

Whatever's screwing with my sleep, I'm really not happy with it, and I think on Thursday's doctor visit I'll ask if I can get something for that.

I really hope I get to spend time with friends and on drawing sometime in a much kinder, more relaxed future.

It's amazing how much easier it is to feel good about myself in forest. Here I have to consciously remind myself of the sort of confidence which was as natural as breathing in that place.

Selfie

Also today I went to a really beautiful forest. Woods and beaches recharge me.

Some of today’s #drawings. I spent a lot of paper on figuring out horses but apparently dogs are more familiar. Drawn from YouTube vids!

"[dog breed] carries themselves proudly and it's easy to imagine them lounging in the palaces of a Russian tsar or swiftly running down a wolf"

dog person translation "or at the dog park needing to sniff EVERY BUTT even vaguely nearby and now sprawled on back on the couch with legs going in all directions."

"[dog breed] is the picture of refinement and elegance."

dog person translation "rolled in something AMAZING on the beach and now smells like low tide"