Rain Dog @Leucrotta@awoo.space

So apparently Jordan Peterson quit Twitter over some lady named Yumi Nu being too fat or something. This is awesome, we owe her. I think I need to intensely study more photos of Ms. Nu to determine if she is in fact the downfall of western civilization.

Crowdsourcing Mia Tyler showing up at Jordan Peterson’s house, in a bikini, in hopes he runs off into the woods to live on roots and edible grubs.

(pandemic, runaway cost of living, wage stagnation, housing less available, murderous racism, religious fanaticism etc at best brushed off and at worst actively supported by authority, the feeling that having tread water for so long there’s more treading water ahead, etc). Aging turns out difficult in dimensions other than expected and again, I’m profoundly lucky to have started hitting my personal issues in the 90s, when the surrounding environment was less obviously hostile.

(I’d very much been trained everything was my fuck up, but even if I’d had emotional and fiscal resources to bash through limitations that’s no guarantee of “success,” success may be a lot more modest and nuanced than well-off-and-married-with-kids-doing-your-passion-for-money, and it’s really obvious that a lot of far worse actions and actors are successful thanks to luck, horrible bias etc) the cynicism and burnout are worse…

Honestly I thought getting old I’d be dealing with cynicism, burnout, and self validation despite all the places I’ve “failed”. I hadn’t expected just how fucked up society and while that means less self hate…

I can hate very deeply and that gunmetal F150 with the ultra buff suspension set off the urge to light fires and throw cinder blocks despite their complete lack of flags, or Punisher/religious/political decals.

The li’l handicapped placard on the rear view mirror didn’t help any.

I got somehow from "songs about Portland" to "Whitewater" and "Space Cadet," Kyuss' best tracks, and from there to the imminently predictable desire to be in woods and on the side of a mountain somewhere instead of at work tomorrow.

and we say we're in love with all of it
and we say we're in love with everything
and we say what can we say?
and we say we're in love with all of it
and we say we're in love with everything
and we LIE. Love to lie.
#SongLyrics

My spirit sings loud and clear
Even in here
I'll be reborn someday, someday.
If I wait long enough. #SongLyrics

til you can sing "urethra" in place of "Gigantor" in the theme song

URETHRA THE SPACE AGE ROBOT
HIS POWER IS IN YOUR HANDS
[redacted]
STRONGER THAN STRONG
READY TO FIGHT FOR RIGHT AGAINST WRONG
URETHRA
URETHRA
UREEEEEETHRA

hung around outside and read until it got too cold and then - came home motivated. The bedclothes are currently in the dryer, I unloaded the dishwasher, took out garbage and watered the tomato plant, cut my hair/cleaned up/showered off, and cooked dinner. That loud KLUNK noise is my motivation dropping through the floor.

And I drew some naked furries, nothing showing but NSFW in theme. #drawings #pinup

#drawing witch and her harpy allies, also there’s like, tits. So NSFW.

Anyway this weekend I mostly drew really rough stuff. Goblin warband, some unpleasant fanatic elves, and two different heavy armors. #drawings

After making a recipe from online I realized that between tomatoes, vinegar, and lemon juice it was basically an Italian style sweet and sour sauce! Big takeaway was how to toast pignolias, they got a nice flavor from that.

okay, gotta go through shower, into clothes, out the door, and to the other end of freakin' Seattle. The chances of it being a beautiful day make me crankier about having to spend it at the day job. Maybe it'll be beautiful by the time I get out, coffee and read outside maybe?

and suddenly boom, awake

Here are some verified GoFundMe donations to assist people in Buffalo with funeral expenses, etc.

https://www.gofundme.com/c/act/buffalo-mass-shooting-fundraisers?fbclid=IwAR2mk1ldz6xf-cShdoYGTCIyjvvrZ4maSWbtTcJ4PsOWBmnMsyR6-Quyrs8

I will *not* leave the comment "Hey man what're you tryin' to do to my new record, I just bought it" on Dungeon Weed albums. #Beholder #GonnaFuckYouUp

Hey I found these folks who are distributing food because Tops? Turns out to have been the easy place to get to in Buffalo for groceries *and* if you were on SNAP you could get your benefit stuff there, so now that it’s closed for a bit that community is worse screwed than we thought. Buffalo Community Fridge is taking food donations but I think over on Instagram they said they actually can’t do monetary rn.

https://twitter.com/toksyk27/status/1525942704240308229?s=21&t=zPWcnb0MXWMWzDtpgYkn5g

I'm going to repeat my opinion about "white" not being a real thing. I'm Ukranian-Russian-Byelorussian-Middle-Eastern-possibly-Evenk-possibly-Romani, I'm not "white" even by the central issue of Jewishness (whether we're "white" or not depends on how convenient that is to the non-Jews making that judgment call). I don't go to White Festivals where I can get loukoumades and go watch caber tossing, right next to the shumka dancers; nobody does.

The whole horrible thing is an invention intended to separate out light skinned European descendants from dark skinned people (and if you're African-American, you've probably got ancestors from Europe) to create an elitism separate from wealth, as a distraction from wealth inequalities (King talks about this a lot at the beginning of "How Long? Not Long") and as part of culturally annihilating any European identity that wasn't comfortably bland "American," so basically being "white" does not mean only that you benefited from anti-Blackness, it means you're *also a victim of it*.

I feel with any prejudices, that the offenses of the horrifying past wouldn't matter so much if they weren't *still happening*. Every bit of the whole superior/inferior/blah blah blah thing (and who wants to live their life out believing they're in some constant contest of intelligence, toughness and ability against everyone else? I grew up with that and it was shitty!) is basically spawned off 19th-20th century *marketing gimmick* to get people to own other humans, fight and die so other people could own other humans, and as a giant distraction.

People are suffering and dying right fucking now for what's essentially someone else's ad slogan. Hell, you look at the party of anti-Blackness in the USA and even the guys who are dyed in the wool white supremacists, like Reagan and Trump, were using it as a cheap gimmick.

The whole thing's fucking vile.