Rain Dog @Leucrotta@awoo.space

so when things get too tough
and your tail is dragging on the ground
and even down looks up
BAD LUCK!
we can show you a good time (show you a good time)
and we don't charge nothing (nothing at all!)
so shake your nasty stuff
wiggle in the middle now!
get the town talkin', fire gang!

... oh NO! Followed by the boring part of the movie where she hallucinates that she's in "Amadeus"

corn liquor tastes sweeter in this town
could it be it's the same as the last?
I swear I seen your face before
just as familiar as a bottle and a glass
hey darlin! sleepin' on the blacktop
hey darlin! runnin' through the trees, honey
hey darlin! leavin' for the next town
less'n my sense catches up with me.

woke up on lockdown one more time.
my visions won't ever learn.
but I see the light that much clearer every time I return.
forge my armor in the old fire, my spirit sings loud and clear
even in *here*.
I'll be reborn, someday, someday, if I wait long enough.

And if you'da took to me like
A gull takes to the wind.
Well, I'da jumped from my tree
And I'da danced like the king of the eyesores
And the rest of our lives woulda fared well.

Wolf Mother, where ya been?
you look so worn and so thin.
you're a taker, devil's maker,
let me hear you sing, heija heija.
Wolf Father at the door
you don't smile any more.
you're a drifter, shape shifter,
let me see you run, heija heija.

lost as I may be
in the fog of my own noise and trivialities
Grand Holy Mother grant me clarity
I am standing on the edge of forever, forever.

Today, on Ashkenazic/Sephardic Heritage Southerner Cooks Their Conception of Chinese Food, we have spicy green beans and Peking style eggplant.

*screams loudly about how everwhere in the world seems to be Blue Line Flag and Punisher Decal Country OR intended for people who make at least six figures annually*
*for several minutes straight*
*deep breath *
Ahhhh, it’s a nice afternoon in Seattle.

What did the bodily forms of the Ringwraiths *really* look like under those cloaks and iron crowns? Tolkien’s notoriously light on details but in a letter dated Sept 16, 1952 he mentions the Witch King’s “flawless lip gloss… his eyeshadow was just spectacular.” #subtweet

ad in Wargames; "Join the armies of Christendom to free the Holy Land or take the lead of the Jihad to bring the word of the Prophet to the infidels"

shouldn't that be the other way 'round, bring Christianity to unbelievers or free the Holy Land from the Frankish invaders?

was disappointed by the "dark middle eastern fantasy" mix YouTube found, so here's the best fake mideastern album that I know about.

Anne Dudley and Jaz Coleman Songs from the Victorious City 1991 TVT Rec... https://youtu.be/hh4Ghm4jD3M via @YouTube

gotta say out of all the insults potentially hurled at me by asshole white people nearly running me over, the n bomb was *not* one I expected. First time for everything eh?

#drawings today, members of the Imperial Ecclesiarchy defending some steps in WH40K; a paladin or ranger leads his “bidowers” to attack evil troops; and some werewolves.

So I was think about how some of today’s bad feelings are basically con drop. I WAS special, valuable and worthwhile to someone, work, parents and apartment makes me feel not special, valuable or worthwhile. Maybe the issue is in part I never learned how to carry feeling special/valuable/worthwhile into dismissive spaces because my childhood was going from one dismissive “space” to another.

Maybe I can hack feeling this bad by remembering it’s an artifact of not being granted freedom as a kid.

Just feeling really broken today. About to eat now, and in 3+ hours I get off shift and maybe drawing will help too.

Just a lot of “childhood trained me that regardless of who I actually was, I am profoundly ugly, stupid, without inherent worth and futureless,” and “I bought into my lack of future so much that if it’s even possible, I’m unsure how I get anything I actually want now.”

I really wish I didn’t have all this baggage about being stupid. Having people scream that I was at me kinda has that effect.

Me: just kinda depressed right now. Going from the stress of a day with my parents to the good feelings of last night really emotionally hit hard.

Also me: heh heh medieval music all sounds like it should have some dude making fart noises with his hands in time.

tell me I have plenty of food in the house and don't need to visit the Lynnwood H-Mart probably during a bad time of the week, to try to buy chicken livers.

I’m convinced that, had he lived longer, Lovecraft would have eventually had friends who were Black, and also would’ve completely not understood why saying the most horrifyingly racist shit upset them.