Rain Dog @Leucrotta@awoo.space

40K fan art, trench warfare plus generic Russo-Franco-Polish uniforms. Also I was listening to KMFDM which gets real 40K in places. #drawing

*outside with fursuit head off sweating profusely* THAT’S RIGHT, BIG PHIL’S USED FURSUITS HAS JUST WHAT Y’ALL NEED! YOU WANT SERGALS WE GOT NORTHERN AND SOUTHERN SERGALS! YOU WANT UHHHH WHATEVER THIS THING IS, WELL WE GOT IT TOO!

NO WELL PAYING TECH SECTOR JOB? NOOOO PROBLEM! OUR FINANCE DEPARTMENT IS RIGHT THERE TO ENSURE YOU’LL BE HAEMORRHAGING FUNDS LONG AFTER THE FEELINGS OF REGRET HAVE KICKED IN!

RIGHT OFF BUFORD HIGHWAY RIGHT NEXT TO SERGEANT PEPPER’S PIZZA CIRCUS!

Really, REALLY not interested, folks.

All they can ever fucking do is tell people not to off themselves, look for signs etc etc, there’s nothing they ever do to MAKE LIFE WORTH CONTINUING, they’re like every other fucking adult. If I find reasons not to open my wrists that’s up to me and my immediate circle. All fucking society can offer is no healthcare, no rent control, no guaranteed housing or income, a future intended for GOOD people not me, and telling us not to off ourselves.

#NotMyArt doing an image search for Mitch Byrd flushed out this anthro-hippo art for a "how to draw" book, which I hadn't previously seen but which is uh... very Mitch Byrd.

#wip #drawings today, just out of sorts and trying to block out anatomy and action. Nomad girl pinup art; a swashbuckler faces a half orc barbarian; and a tiefling faces kuo-toa.

time to listen to some tasteful music. Lords of Acid's "Finger My Twat," the extended Gothy Wax Play remix. From their "Gigantic Bong" album.

LOVING YOU WAS LIKE LOVING THE DEAD!
LOVING YOU WAS LIKE LOVING THE DEAD!
WAS LIKE LOVING THE DEAD!
WAS LIKE LOVING THE DEAD!
*snap snap*

So I was thinking about the usual racist criticism of casting Black elves etc, and how as well as various dark skinned people in premodern Europe, long ago there were indigenous European PoC, like Dorians or dark skinned Scandinavians. People don’t completely disappear, are some of us their descendants? And given the age of humanity, what are chances we’re carrying around genes from ethnicities that don’t exist any more, and that some of us are connected by them despite superficial differences?

Re last boost, @D6016 i thought of you of course!

When Germany went full fascist, they were still a fairly NEW country and their entry into imperialism was pretty late, despite all the Nazi appeals to historicity. By contrast we’re very much a fallen empire rooted in anti-Blackness, anti-immigrant sentiment, a rugged individual myth which Germans don’t have, and outside fashy interests really pulling strings to get our domestic shit into office. Tbh I think we’re way more susceptible.

Debating naming any warforged I play after German materiel. Like for instance Sturmpanzer Brummbär (“Brumm” for short) the paladin, and her companion, the cleric Leichte Spähpanzer.

Lately autocorrect has been capitalizing everything. This means my Shitposts take on the Portentous Game Jargon appearance of old school White Wolf games.

I suddenly realized that there’s no toggle switch where you’re committed to a happy ending. Instead life rolls along and what keeps you pushing through current bullshit is a sense of there being a long term, and what keeps you looking back with smiles rather than regret are memories. Which is okay! It’s just as someone with CPTSD neither long term planning nor memory are my strengths.

I am not really sure what happened, but my cortisol levels were terrible last night - there were places where I could really feel the anxiety creeping up - and I kept waking up, I feel like I slept in <1 hour increments the whole time.

this isn't being a great night as far as sleep goes. I really *should* have had an edible when timing was better, earlier.

1. however good an artist I am gets easily confused with

2. not making money from my art, which mostly beating myself up for not being smart and brave enough to successfully push to make tons on art for bucks, mixed with running into fear of not making enough money

3, none of which is really going to be something I figure out while dealing with bad acid reflux at 0200

Oh yeah it's my favorite Garmarna tracks! "Dodens Fikarast,""Varfor ar Gud Tyst?" and "Lille Kristin var Mycket Deprimerad."

Today’s mostly been ass, so I’m clinging to the parts which weren’t. It might be time for a routine low orbit maintenance mission for the Coyote Space Agency later, if you know what I mean.

Went to local cafe/outdoors space and someone’s kid was screaming and making noise enough it carried, outdoors and despite being near a fountain, it stressed me out for around an hour of trying to draw, before I went this is not gonna get better, and I noped out.