Rain Dog @Leucrotta@awoo.space

Really wish I had resources for talk therapy (money, but also time to do it, and time to recover if I hit big stuff) - which connects through to how I wish I could take actual vacation or just skip days.

someone tried to tell me something
"Don't let the world bring you down"
nothing can do me in, before I do myself
so save it for your own and the ones you can help

there's a hole and a ladder
a fence we can climb
mad as a hatter
you're thin as a dime
go out to the meadow
the hills are a-green
sing me a rainbow
steal me a dream.

WHO THE FUCK WANTS TO CLEAN IT?
IT'S DISGUSTING AND DIRTY
AND THE SPONGE IN THE DRAINER
IS STINKY AND SPURTY

it's like ONE BIG INBRED FUCK-FEST!
no I do not want to stop, collaborate or listen!

MY BALLS FEEL LIKE A PAIR OF MARACAS
MY BALLS FEEL LIKE A PAIR OF MARACAS
I PROBABLY GOT THE GONOCOCCOCOCCUS
MY BALLS FEEL LIKE A PAIR OF MARACAS, AI YI YI!
WHY DOES IT
WHY DOES IT
WHY DOES IT
WHY DOES IT HURT!
WHEN!
I!
PEEEEEEEeeeeeeeeeeeeEEEEEEEEE!

Immigrant Song (Remaster) https://youtu.be/y8OtzJtp-EM via @YouTube

FOUL SPAWN OF JORMANGUNDR, KNOW YE NOW THE WRATH OF MINE URU HAMMER

started listening to Zeppelin's "The Ocean" and had to swap out to "She's Crafty" for a bit

Today’s #drawings - tightened a sacrificial ceremony with acolytes dancing to summon a dread fiend lord, and a grim company of dwarf (and apparently Czech?) musketeers in armor stand on a hill.

#drawing from last night, but posting it today; a harpy leaps towards halfling prey.

self acceptance is the only sane way to respond to people who may react to you with love, admiration, denigration, or a complete disregard for who you are except in so much as you're convenient to them, and all without *you* having changed a bit.

"Those aren't birds sweetheart, they're *giant vampire bats*." #MovieQuotes #Soundtrack

If you’re really into kemono suits does that make you a weeabuWu?

Hey kids did you guess it’s Self Esteem Plunges Through the Floor O’Clock? It’s Self Esteem Plunges Through the Floor O’Clock.

Hey as long as I’m thinking about cooking here is some homemade sweet and sour sauce over fried catfish last Thursday before my mood crashed and I deleted a batch of posts.

Holy shit I didn’t know you could glaze in LIGHTER colors on miniatures. This is huge if I can ever get back into painting minis.

Trying to think this out & tell myself;
* I have a right to look for better housing because what I’ve got now is legitimately unsustainable.
* I have a right to look for a better job because what I have is sustainable but not comfortable.
* I’d still have a right to look for a better job and better housing even if I had rent I could easily cover and a job I liked.
* looking for new work or housing is difficult for me, and if I can get past the learned helplessness I still need to pace it better.

The good news is, for obvious reasons I didn’t enjoy a worldview rooted in crappy self worth, and I cope a lot better with more acceptance.

The worse news; these crummy experiences were still terrible, the bitterness, distrust, anger, poverty and lost time are still there even if my acceptance of self changes, and it is very likely too late for me to truly get what I want in life as a result.